I'm basically a straight middle aged male also. But I have the same fantasy from time to time. I've never been with a man, and for the most part am not turned on by men. But the thought of sucking a nice hard cock is very intriguing. And it doesn't have to be a BIG one. Mine is an average 6 in. cock. That would be fine for a beginning cocksucker. I don't want to kiss, or cuddle, or fuck his ass. I just want to experience sucking cock. I've gotten blowjobs from scores of women, and I know what I like. So, with all of the attention I've payed over the years, I think that I could give a pretty damn good blowjob.
To me the best part of sucking cock is having a female audience. But for me it is not her instructing or helping me that makes it hot. It's her riduculing me and calling me a faggot while I do it. Having girls know what a faggot I am is so arousing. Having them spank my faggot balls while we do that is even better. But the best was the time I got double fucked up the ass while I sucked on two cocks while my girlfriend and their girlfriends viciously berated and ridiculed me for choosing to be such a sissy faggot. Oh and I was in drag while it happened. They made a video and posted it on line but my make-up disguised me so nobody knew. I kind of wish the whole world knew. The best would be to be gang banged by hundreds of guys, mostly black guys to gang fuck me like that for days at a time while the whole thing was broadcast live for millions to view while a large group of women tormented my balls and "clit." and laughed at me and ridiculed me. I think that would make me insanely horny forever.
