I love my husband, but I am tired of "making love".
I need him to be more aggressive, be more crude, say cruel sexual things to me as we have sex, but its just not his nature.
I want to be TAKEN.

I dream of having a guy (or a couple guys) just use me.
I would love to be saying "no!" to a man, but at the same time spreading my legs open for him, and kissing his neck as he enters me.
I love the idea of going home satisfied, and my husband having no idea that there was another man's sperm still inside my body. That would be so naughty.
I want to be a slut, but making love to my husband cant bring that out in me.
We tried roleplaying once where he was a mean guy abusing me, but knowing how mellow he is, that did not work for either of us.

This is bad, but if I go shopping somewhere on my own, I will purposely park on the side of the building, or somewhere where it is more secluded or dark. I always hope to make eye contact with a stranger in the store, and I dream about him following me to my car.
If he forces himself on me a little, I would not have to feel so guilty for cheating, right?

I did have an affair just before my wedding with an old boyfriend who knew what I liked. In my mind, it was my way of saying "goodbye" to that kind of sex, and giving in to the idea that I should be happy from then on just having soft, loving sex with my husband.
And I have been faithful for 12 years now.
But I sometimes feel like I will explode if I don't get my cravings taken care of.