I've known that I'm straight. One day me and my cousin were in his room. We were watching tv, then he began to touch his bulge, I tried to to look. He spotted that I was looking and he asked me would you like to see and touch it. I was like no, but deep inside I wanted to touch it. I ended up doing it, he asked me it's big huh. I was like yea sure. The next day I went to his house again. We were playing soccer, he asked me to go to the backyard with him. I was like okay... As soon as we got to his backyard he pulled down his shorts and his boxers and asked me to masturbate him. I said yes it felt Awsome. He later pulled down my shorts and pulled out my cock and began masturbating me. That also felt good. When we were done masturbating each other he asked me to turn around,he began to push in his cock. It felt Awsome tbh. He later asked me to do oral sex but I said no because we were cousins. A month later we went to our friend house. Our friend was upstairs me and my cousin went in a gym room in his house and began to masturbate each other. Ever since those days of sins, the memories drive me crazy,they get me so hard and I masturbate. I can't help it