I shouldn't be here on this site, or online, because my boyfriend Teddy doesn't like me talking to anyone when he isn't around. He has a pretty bad temper sometimes, especially when he's high on meth, which is almost always. The last thing I need is another black eye or worse, but he got busted again last night and wont be getting out for a few days. They got him just as he was crossing the parking lot of the motel where we live, but I am not sure for what. Luckily it wasn't for possession this time because he scored the other day and we still have an ounce of kush and a most of an 8ball of meth. That's why I didn't go out when the cops stopped him, so the cops wouldn't find out where he lived and search the place. Instead all I could do was watch from the window and cry as they hooked him up and took him to jail. It was fucked up watching him get arrested but there was nothing I could do.

Yeah, he gave me a black eye the other day, but it was my fault. He had come home around 10 at night and was hungry so I made him some hamburgers and green beans. It was all good until he saw the green beans. It's not that he doesn't like them but he wanted corn. That's his favorite and I shouldn't have to be told what he wants, I should know. I should have looked better or I would have found the three cans behind the Capt. Crunch, but it goes to show that Teddy is right, I am lazy and stupid sometimes. I set his plate down and as soon as he saw the green beans he threw the plate at me and smacked me around a little.

He's right that when he comes home he should be able to have what he wants, not get what's easy for me. He is the one that takes all the risks going out every day to get us money, while all I do all day is mostly lay around plating Xbox and getting high. My only real chores are to keep our motel room clean, do laundry once in an while and make him his meals and none of that takes more than an hour or two. I would have added sucking his cock when he needs it but I love to do that for him...smile.

I know he cares about me because he gets really jealous if I so much as look at another guy. One night we were hanging out at a party and he got mad because he said I had been checking out some guys bulge. I don't remember doing that but he said I did so I must have been. He grabbed my arm and dragged me home, just a half block away and when we were in our room he made me strip and then whipped me with a belt for disrespecting him. He left big welts on my ass and legs and then made me wear shorts even outside so everyone could see my bruises and know I was a fuck-up.

I met Teddy after running away from home seven months ago. My mom had moved us in with her newest boyfriend, this big black guy named Frank who deals dope and carries a gun everywhere he goes. He isn't very nice and doesn't like me at all. He told me more than once he would throw me out except it would cause him problems with my mom. I did my best to stay away from him and was doing okay until one night when he walked in on me masturbating in my room. That wouldn't have been a big deal except that he saw that I was jerking off to a gay magazine I had found in an empty lot on the way home from school one day. To make it even worse I had started shaving my legs and pubes a few days before that and because I was totally naked on my bed he could see me. His yelling brought my mom and she sided with Frank, yelling at me and calling me names like faggot and sissy. When they finally went away I left.

I wandered around for a few days and met some other kids who let me squat with them. The third day I met Teddy who had come around to collect some money he was owned and he started talking to me and invited me over to his place, a room at cheap motel, to party. We got high and one thing led to another and we had sex. Even though I had known I was gay for a long time I had never been with a guy before then, Teddy was my first. I sucked his cock and he sucked mine and then he fucked me. It hurt at first because he has a big dick but once he started working that cock in and out of my asshole I loved it. We were both high on meth so we had sex a long time and didn't stop until just before the sun came up. Then we hung out all day and I sucked his cock a few more times before he said for me to move in and be his 'house mouse'. I didn't like sleeping on the streets and loved the idea of having more sex with him so I said okay.

Teddy doesn't have a job but he gets enough money to pay our rent, buy food and even keep us with enough smoke and speed. Sometimes he brings some guy over, usually some married older guy and I have to suck his cock or let him fuck me for extra cash but that doesn't happen often. I have had to suck off the manager a few times because we were short on rent but he always cums fast so it's not all that bad. As long as I get Teddy's big dick I am happy. If Teddy is in jail too long I am going to have to pay rent with blowjobs until he gets out.

Of course as soon as everyone knew he got busted there were knocks on the door, guys looking to get their dick sucked. That always happens and I was expecting it. I sucked about five dicks one after the other before crashing. Teddy would beat my ass if he knew I sucked off another guy when he wasn't around, but everyone's afraid of him enough it to not say anything so I'm not worried he'll find out especially because then they wouldn't get head again from me. I give awesome head, everyone says so, probably because I love to suck cock and know how to do it really good now. I wasn't very good at it when I first met Teddy but I got a lot of practice on his big dick.

I can't wait for him to get out and give my ass a good hard pounding