I have a lot to confess, but one at a time I guess. A few years ago after a breakup from a woman I was seeing, a married female from our church started emailing to check on me. I would tell her about the relationship, etc. She eluded to it being her loss. I confided to her some sexual things the ex had been involved with before me and at some point, the married friend texted that she gives good blow jobs.

One day I messaged that I had a dream about her and she asked about it. I started telling her a risque story to which she would message for me to keep going and how i was a tease, etc. Then periodically she would message out of the blue asking if I'd had any more dreams. This progressed to me telling her all kinds of things like how my dick would get hard looking at her in church. And a couple of times how I was really wanting to eat pussy.

I've even visited her work a few times. Never without her knowing first and only for a few minutes. She knows I get hard looking at her when I'm there. And I have emailed tons of things to her. She has revealed very little, but hasn't told me to stop or said not to stop by when I ask. And when I say I'm sending email, she says okay. That sort of thing.

I am extremely horny and would be okay with only reciprocal char if I could find it. I wish I could watch her sucking on one, but have no clue how to make that happen. I seriously am debating on jerking off in front of her. Somehow. I do want to do this. Just unsure I guess.