To J,

I know we have had an extremely fucked up relationship for the past 5 or 6 years. I am sorry. I know I messed with your head before we broke up. But you kind of fucked 4 other guys, so I don't feel that bad. I do feel bad about telling you I never loved you. That was a lie, and I am not sure if it ever went away...

Is it bad to love an ex, but be in love with a current girlfriend?

I don't know, but however it goes... I'm sorry, and I hope we can live peacefully while continuing our never talking to each other again.

Love,
Me