Straight Female / 23
I have been dreaming about one of my school mates since past few days. Last night he came in my dream again. Back in those days, when we were bench partners in the 7th grade, we really had fun in class. We were really good friends.
Somehow I'm sure that he had a thing for me or was it that i used to like him but i couldn't understand my own feelings. We did have some moments of our own,even though we were really young. But we would just shrug it off or change topic. A year later our classes changed and we barely spoke then, i uses to find this difficult to digest because i had gotten used to him. If we would cross each others paths in the hallway we would only look at each other for a few seconds and walk off. Then a few months into 8th grade, i heard he liked another girl and had asked her out. At that time i felt a little hurt, i still hadn't understood why i was feeling this way. I think its cause i had to tell him what i really feel and i hadn't truly expected this. I felt crushed. Slowly, over the years i moved on.
I am in a steady relationship now since 8 years and I do love my boyfriend alot and yet as of late, I've been dreaming about that boy. Romantically even. He says sweet things to me, he holds me, kisses me, touches me in ways my boyfriend does. I can't seem to understand why is my heart beating fast when i think of him,of all the things we do in my dreams.
I feel like seeing him actually, meeting him but i don't know what should i say to him because this is so ridiculous i guess. I seem to be really content with him in my dreams, like nothing better could ever happen. As if, we were meant to be. But it feels foolish and i am in a relationship. I need to get rid of the butterfly like feeling. And also eliminate that need of wanting to meet him.
I have dreamt of him 4 times in the past week. And i don't know what to do to stop this. Its weird but i am feeling guilty of wanting a romantic relationship with this boy. Maybe it also because my boyfriend has been distant with me lately and doesn't have time for me that my mind is fantasizing and finding ways to make up for the intimacy I'm craving. But i don't understand, why that boy! I have had 2 other relationships before meeting my boyfriend, and i don't dream of my exes.
Somehow I'm sure that he had a thing for me or was it that i used to like him but i couldn't understand my own feelings. We did have some moments of our own,even though we were really young. But we would just shrug it off or change topic. A year later our classes changed and we barely spoke then, i uses to find this difficult to digest because i had gotten used to him. If we would cross each others paths in the hallway we would only look at each other for a few seconds and walk off. Then a few months into 8th grade, i heard he liked another girl and had asked her out. At that time i felt a little hurt, i still hadn't understood why i was feeling this way. I think its cause i had to tell him what i really feel and i hadn't truly expected this. I felt crushed. Slowly, over the years i moved on.
I am in a steady relationship now since 8 years and I do love my boyfriend alot and yet as of late, I've been dreaming about that boy. Romantically even. He says sweet things to me, he holds me, kisses me, touches me in ways my boyfriend does. I can't seem to understand why is my heart beating fast when i think of him,of all the things we do in my dreams.
I feel like seeing him actually, meeting him but i don't know what should i say to him because this is so ridiculous i guess. I seem to be really content with him in my dreams, like nothing better could ever happen. As if, we were meant to be. But it feels foolish and i am in a relationship. I need to get rid of the butterfly like feeling. And also eliminate that need of wanting to meet him.
I have dreamt of him 4 times in the past week. And i don't know what to do to stop this. Its weird but i am feeling guilty of wanting a romantic relationship with this boy. Maybe it also because my boyfriend has been distant with me lately and doesn't have time for me that my mind is fantasizing and finding ways to make up for the intimacy I'm craving. But i don't understand, why that boy! I have had 2 other relationships before meeting my boyfriend, and i don't dream of my exes.
