There is a girl I met a few years ago. She bartends at a strip club I frequent. Actually, I only go there to see her. I know how pathetic this all is/sounds, but she is the most amzingly beautiful chick I have ever met. I get wasted and just look at her and imagine tastings her. I lie to myself and try and convince myself that there is a part of her that wants it to. I went to see her friday and totally convinced myself that there have been timeta that I made her horny. Pure fantasy. I think this coming friday will be the last time I go see her. We don't even hangout anymore, she has a boyfriend, i have a wife. This just pure fantasy. I wish ywou could see her. Her eyes, her lips, her skin, her legs and possible the greatest ass ever. Ok fuck this, definitely not going up there anymore. It's not even that I just lust for her, i want her and I want her to want me. I let my wife see my true face and even though she is still here, I am and have always been alone.