I am 38, a business owner, and I have been a false role model for other women. I am submitting to my lover. By submissive, I mean behaviorally and sexually. I have been seeing him for five months, I met him through a friend. He has asked me to declare my obedience to him in public, before my church congregation. I have to get an annulment of my previous marriage. I also have to behave publically as I do in his house, to speak when spoken to, to serve him, to be obedient. I am to become pregnant.

I can no longer put off the inevitable, I will let my mother and sisters know before I stand and declare to all that I have accepted to be taken by the hand and declare my unconditional obedience.

My time has finally come where I must walk as a woman, beholding to my man. I am convinced this is God's hand, guiding me, to make amends for the sins I have committed since my teens, for disobedience to His word, pretending to walk in the shoes of a man. I am so remorseful for having failed Him, I should he welcoming grand children, and not delivering myself to my first pregnancy.

I pray He will forgive me for my disobedience, and I promise to take my man's hand, to walk at his side, to be true to him and his house, to bear his children, to live the life as the woman I was born.

Thank you for listening to my confession.