Some days, women turn me on so much. So I go surf for some porn full of beautiful women like I always used to. But these days I never get hard until I catch a glimpse of some dude's thick, juicy cock. Then suddenly I'm not so interested in the women anymore. They're still beautiful, but the dudes, their dicks, their ball sacs, their muscles are so fucking sexy. So I say fuck the straight porn and I go right to the gay porn pages, where the pics and videos of men fucking other men, sucking other men, kissing other men, caressing other men are so delectably repugnant that they get me so hard I could almost blow without touching my dick, like I'm 16 again.

I said some days. Most days when I'm horny now, I skip the straight porn altogether because I know what my cock will want. When I fuck a real woman now, I often think about a man in order to cum. I think about sucking his dick or taking it up my ass, or just about his smooth athletic body and his lovely plump, flaccid meat. The thing is, I have no romantic interest in men, nor am I attracted to any men I actually know. I've always been straight, and I still fall in love with women. But holy shit how much I'd love to suck a gorgeous cock and swallow the cum I coax from its head.

I got myself into this mess by toying with the masochistic fantasy of making myself gay, years ago, by forcing myself to masturbate to gay porn. It was so naughty. It still is. But now what I originally thought was a silly, absurd idea has become surprisingly real. I'm like one of those straight guys in the gay erotica stories, who gets cursed or brainwashed and becomes gay against his will, and yet even as he dreads it, he can't help loving it in the end. Because the sight of a well hung, uncut man, his foreskin wet with precum makes me feel so good...