All of my friends think I am straight because I act like the normal guy next door type and don't flaunt my sexuality. I pretty much keep to myself and lead a pretty normal life as most would. But I will admit that I love sucking cock and taking it in the ass. I do have some dildos that I bought, one is about 10 inches long and 2 inches thick that I use to strictly practice my deep throating with just in case I hook up with a hung guy and I also have 2 others that I use to fuck myself with and if I am hooking up I will shower and clean myself out and ride my 8 inch 1 3/4 inch thick dildo to make it easier for the guy to top me if it goes that far.
My problem is I live in a very small backwoods town and a lot of people know each other so it makes it hard to find guys to play with. I have tried Adam4 Adam and Craig's list to hook up but when it actually comes time to meet they chicken out for fear we might know each other. I am not the one to kiss and tell and if I sucked you off or let you fuck me then ran into you in the store or somewhere public I wouldn't say anything to you and let you approach me first.
I was in a city about 70 miles away and went to the adult book store this past April and was there to suck some cock. I was giving a guy a blowjob in a small booth which have no doors on them due to state regulations so if anyone walking by can easily see what your doing. Well I was sucking this guy and some guy stopped and was watching us, I stopped for a second and looked up and said hi. Well I was horrified that the guy watching happen to be an acquaintance from my small town and both of ours eyes got big and wide. when he noticed he knew me he walked away. I figured it was to late and went back to sucking the guy off and after he shot his cum down my throat I got up and started walking around the store to see if I could find this guy.
I didn't find him and after a bit I left and headed home. A few days later I was at the local watering hole when he walked in and sat a few chairs away from me and when we looked at each other he just said hi and grinned. After a bit I was getting ready to leave and he got up and said I'll walk out with you. Once outside he said he hasn't said anything to anyone because it would be hard to explain why he was in the store and seeing me sucking a guy off and he was there to get sucked off himself. We chatted a bit and then we drove up to an old logging road and I sucked him off.
Since then I have sucked him off numerous times and he has fucked me a few times but mostly (being I am retired) he will text me saying he needs to bust a nut and makes sure I am going to be home. Then he comes over drops his pants and I suck him off. He has never sucked or even played with my cock and basically just uses me as his cum dump when his wife isn't giving him any which I am perfectly fine with that because like I said I love sucking cock and getting fucked in the ass. I am at the point where I am slowly trying to come out of the closet and hoping to find others that would like this kind of arrangement.