This last week I was at my favorite aunts house, my mom's younger sister, to use their pool. It was a scorching hot day so I went over to cool off. My aunt and uncle work, so I figured I had the place to myself, we have a key so we, my family, can come over and use the pool any time. Well, as it turned out I was wrong.

I changed into my bikini, put on my flipflops, grabbed my towel, and headed out to the pool. Just as I came out the kitchen door, there was my aunt doing a dive into the deep end. Naked! When she came up again, she told me to join her. I didn't know what to do, but I put my towel down and just kind of reluctantly stood by the patio furniture. She told me to join her, but I was still kind of embarrassed she was naked. She insisted so I got ready to jump in. Then she told me, "No, take it off. Nobody's around."

It was like someone drove an icecicle through my heart. I looked down at her, and she looked back and gave me a "come on" wave of her hand. It took me a couple of moments, but she smiled and said, "Come on, I do this all the time."

Well, eventually I ended up in the pool, yes, and I was naked too. That was just crazy! Swimming and tanning naked all afternoon with my aunt.

Now here's my problem. I'm straight, at least I am not attracted, nor even think of sex with other girls, but after this I am so attracted to my aunt. She is the only woman I've ever seen naked and spent any time with, besides mom and my sisters. I mean we were just there together and we were naked, and it was so nice. I really want to do it some more, and I kind of want to be with her.

As we swam and talked and sunned, I found myself kind of wondering what it would be like. She's not gorgeously beautiful, but she is really good looking, she keeps in shape by swimming and working out at the Y. It's like why would she ever want me though. She's married and her husband is really good looking. She's popular, I mean if she wanted to be with women she has tons of friends, why would she want to be with me.

This is really on my mind and I don't want to do anything stupid so things get to be weird between us. She told me to come back any time, and mentioned that the early afternoon is best for "private" swimming. I want to go, but I just feel like I'm so stupid thinking this way. What if she catches me staring, I caught myself looking at her several times. I feel so confused now, and it's frustrating too! Do I or don't I? And even more frustrating is that I don't even know what it is that I do or don't do? I'm just too nervous and hopelessly confused to think straight.