I work at a major clothing retail franchise that I don't dare say the name of but you'd know it if i did. I am not sure of this site works but i googled it because i'd never ever tell anyone i personally know what is going on in my life.

I am 18 and for about a month now I have been blowing my boss (store manager). It is so messing with my head because I don't know why i am doing it or how to stop it without making a huge mess. I know people always say this shit but it is true, i really did not want him it was a misunderstanding and I did not know how to get out of it.

So about 4 weeks ago or so i wanted the weekend off really bad to go to a concert with my boyfriend. My boss Tom normally lets me have the run of the place. I sell lots of clothes for the store and me and him have always clicked. but oh gawd i never thought of him sexually and still don't. He is like 50 plus, chunky, and very married. Nice guy to joke around with and shit talk and stuff but never realized why he liked to hang around me. I know dumb right? I am barely 18, wall formed, and a pretty popular girl, but some how I did not get the memo that when an old married manger jokes around with you that is his version of flirting. So i wanted the weekend off and he really could not give it to me because we where short staffed. I knew it but i like to bitch and whine about stuff just because I can. So I was like, "Please Tom, i'll work close all week!" No i got back. "Please Tom, i'll even clean the bathrooms!" No. I started to just get silly. I was having fun and just wanting to annoy the hell out him. "Please Tom, i'll let your loser son take me on a date". No. "Please Tom, i'll be your slave, work any shift, get you coffee, let you fucking slap my ass on your way out each night." He laughed but said no. I figured the laugh was a good sign i was wearing him down. Fuck, i don't know why i did it, i just wanted to up the humor, i swear it was all in fun. "Please Tom, i'll get down on my knees and blow ya if i have to!" I waited for the no. None came. I waited for the laugh none came. Shit! Fuck! it got so damn awkward. No one said anything. I thought the silence was going to kill me. Then after like forever, he says, "Some things are not cool to even joke about to an old married man whose wife gave up the sport long ago." It was still awkward but it gave me room to edge in a joke, "Fuck Tom, my mouth ain't that good that you should cheat to get it, you can ask Kane (my bf) when you see him." And we both laughed. He walks away and i thought i'd die.

We were closing, i was on close it was just the two of us left. Kane was going to meet my at starbucks in 30 minutes when he got off work. Everything was normal. Both Tom and I were about to leave and he'd walk me to starbucks to make sure i was safe, like ever other time i closed. I was getting my keys out when i felt his hand on my shoulder.

"So, you still want the weekend off?"

i froze. I thought it was over. I am fucking 18 this never happened to me before. I did not know what to do. I had no clue what to fucking say to a man considerably older the my dad who wanted me to blow him; no on ever covered this with me!

"At first i thought you meant it, then i thought you were joking. Honestly, now i am not sure. But i googled it and i realize if i am wrong i'll likely get fired for sexual harassment but on the other hand you offered and your legal so as long as you consent it is worth risking if you still want that deal."

"I... I..." i stumbled no words came. I did not want to blow him. I just want to be clear on that. I was not turned on at all. What i was, was in shock and never having had anyone misunderstand me before and i was very unsure what to say because he was not only my boss but a really sweet guy and a good pal. What I did not say though was No.

"I... I ... thought you were married Tom," I weakly mutter out afraid to make eye contact. I know i was blushing hard because my heart was racing.

"Sure, but we are not fucking, its just head, and my wife stopped doing that for me years ago." He put his hand back on my shoulder and gently but clearly, lowered me to to my knees. I could not believe this was happening. I am on my knees in the fucking the back room by the coat rack just like in a stupid cheap porn looking up at my bosses buldge.

He gave me every out but i was just in such shock. I froze. I'd only blown two people in my life and never imagined Tom as the third. "It is up to you." He said with his mouth but is hand flopped his dick out right to my face faster then his words came out of hie. I was an average dick but the first non cut dick i'd saw before. I am so stupid. I should said no a long time ago, now if i say it I'll be a total ass and if i stay in my job he will always hate me.

I stopped thinking closed my eyes, opened my mouth, and he took the next move very fast, he clearly wanted to make sure id did it. For the second i close my eyes i felt him guide his already semi hard dick onto my tongue and into my mouth. He started to thrust like he was gonna face fuck me. Now i might blow him but i'd not let him tear up my throat and gag me up all over m clothes when i had to meet Kane. It is true he was only the third dick i ever had in my mouth but the other two i sucked the hell out of and often. So i took charge and lift my top and pulled my ample and very firm boobs out of my sports bra. He took the bate and his hands went right too them and I was in control of the pacing. I figured if i was going to do this i needed over fast. I grabbed his balls in one hand gently squeezing while playing around is ass. And got the other hand wet and helped "jack" my blowing
and as predicted he popped really fast. But the stupid bastard thought i expected him to pull out and he got it all over my face. I'd rather swallow it, i had to scrub the cum off before i met Kane!

Anyways, all he did after he cummed was thank me endlessly assure me i had the weekend off and kept telling me how pretty i look with cum on my face (here is a hint guys, girls do not want to here that shit! Duh!). Anyways, my problem is he thinks it is a regular thing. And out not being sure how to get out of it I am blowing him weekly (or more) now. And if i stop now i can't take back what he did, and i'll always see him longing for me and it will either creep me out or piss me off or both. How do you have a professional work relationship with someone you use to casually blow? I can't even make the excuse i want to stop because I have a BF now because I had one then, Tom actually knows him.

It is not gross to me, it is also not something I really get off on or get into. But I don't feels grossed out or used, just that he does not turn me on much. Honestly, if he did i'd be into it cause it is kinda naughty. We are not fucking, he only wants head because his wife still fucks. This is just so awkward. The last time i fingered myself while i did it (which really turned him on), but i did not even think of him but just how naughty blowing a boss at work is and I almost cummed but it was not him i was thinking on just the idea.

So what do I do?
Anyone ever have this happen before?
What if i get fired?
It is not his fault i never said no, i suggest blowing him first. I am at fault. So should i just keep doing it and try to get from it what i can?

Help? Advice? I need you help i can't tell anyone i know i am doing this.