Straight Male / 42
I have a confession, and a question about it also. I am wondering what category I fit into, or if there is a word or name that describes my desires? My confession is that I am completely fascinated with hand and oral sex. So much that I recently even coined the phrase "dirty service" to describe how I feel about it. Of course, for me, this means a certain special kind of hand and blowjobs, and pussy licking. Not just getting it done, but the overall attitude of the performer, and just how downright nasty I need to be with it all as well.
Since the time I was old enough to think about sex I knew I was more turned on by hand jobs and blowjobs than I was just plain intercourse. At first it was just all about getting my own cock sucked or stroked, but over the years I have discovered that just watching porn where a woman gives a good hand job or blowjob is just about as enjoyable as getting one myself.
Now I find that the older I get the nastier I need to be with all of this. I've thought about this and this is what I came up with. I'm not just turned on by the idea of "a blowjob", but more the idea of "a dirty nasty blowjob" being done by someone fully willing to get down on their knees and be dirty, and also realize they like that dirty feeling they get while they're doing it.
First of all, sucking a dick is sort of a dirty thing to do, to put that in your mouth at all. That's what I think attracts me to it, because it's such a dirty act. Second, the woman knowing that if she continues, she'll soon have a mouthful of cum as a result. This combined with the third factor, that a woman knows this and still continues to suck that dick, on purpose and with applied effort to get that result, it's like she's trying to earn it, and this is a big turn on for me, that she knows a mouthful of cum is coming and she's going to do the job necessary to get it. Fourth, she finally gets that load as a reward for her efforts. The thought of that as payment earned for her services performed is also a huge turn on. Fifth, for me, I like to think of a guy thanking her for her job performance, as if love has nothing at all to do with it, it was totally just a service provided by someone he might not even know. He used her mouth to unload and she let him and even helped out by working on him to get it. All this is such a turn on, I can hardly stand it.
For me, a big bonus is if she doesn't swallow. Instead she should keep his cock in her mouth as he cums, continue her head bobbing action until he's fully finished and let his dick fill her mouth up with cum, let it overflow and dribble out on her lips and down off of her chin onto her tits, all while she just continues to suck and lick right on as if it hasn't even happened. She ends up being very nasty and has cum all over her mouth and chin, neck and tits. Before she's done she'll have it on her hands and in her hair also, and hard to say where all else. That is extremely satisfying to think about, her getting cum all over her from being sloppy with it, not to mention the feeling she provided while he shot his load in her mouth and she just continued to suck on, never stopping until he says she can.
That brings me to this next point. For me, a blowjob must always, always, and always, end with a woman taking a man's cum in her mouth. I'm not really into facials for some reason, as nasty as that would be. She is doing a service and that's the job. She gets him there with her mouth and she finishes him with her mouth. It's also about the feeling, so she takes a load in her mouth to make sure his dick can spasm, shoot, shoot again, and feel its best, all with her lips, tongue, and cheeks still doing their best to slob away on that cock and get the last drop of cum his nuts have to offer. Her hand should be on his balls to tease and tug to make sure she gets it all and give him the best possible overall experience her mouth has to offer.
When it comes to eating pussy I want to provide the best possible experience my mouth is humanly able to, and train for stamina and technique to prolong and heighten her experience in the future. I have been really turned on by that lately, and the sloppier the better. I find myself wanting to be dirtier and dirtier, and go down low and lick her ass and tongue her hole to give her a great time. I want to feel her hands pushing my face into her twat, and hear her tell me she's getting close to cumming so I can continue my same action and pace and drive her over the edge in waves of sexual release as she just soaks my mouth and smears my face in her pussy while she's cumming. I want my mouth wide open and my lips just slobbing away on her twat when that happens, giving it all I have while my hands fondle her breasts and touch her body to enhance it all, or maybe grip her hips to pull her puss into my mouth. This is an equal turn on for me as much as a dirty sloppy messy blowjob, and I get so aroused thinking of sucking and licking a pussy to a crushing orgasm that I jerked off twice yesterday just dreaming of sucking my wife off. I want it so much. My wife is not into this at all and very very rarely lets me do it and I am feeling the need to do this so much I have actually had thoughts of looking for someone who will just let me dirty service them, though I would never act on it. Maybe I just need to approach it differently. But, just like a blowjob, a good twat servicing must always end with my mouth just absolutely plastered to her pussy while she cums on my face. I mean just slobbing away like it's the best apple pie I ever tasted, rubbing her lips with my lips while she screams don't stop, keep going. My tongue aching from the work I have just done to earn it but still buried between her lips when she covers it with her juices. Her body quivering and her clit tingling from the tongue flicking I have just given it. I want to be sopping wet from my chin to my chest from her pussy and my saliva when she's finished cumming, just drenched. I feel an absolute desire to have my face just buried in her crotch servicing her when and as she cums. If it could be posible, I'd continue on so she could cum again, just so I could remain a dirty mess a while longer and hopefully get even messier from her second orgasm. I'd probably jack myself to a cum while serving her needs, or else give her a rest, let her recover, and have her suck me to a cum as described above, and then thank her for services rendered.
Honestly, if I thought my wife would be content to just dirty service me and be dirty serviced right back every night, I'd hardly ever have intercourse sex again.
Besides mouths on dicks and twats, there are also those sweet hands. When my wife isn't really into a blowjob (her's are never as good as I described, but were close once) and doesn't want sex herself, I can usually get her to stroke me off. I like it best with no lube. I keep my hair trimmed down very short on my balls so she can gently tease, fondle, and cup them and I can feel it all well. I like for her to tease me to frustrating levels just touching my nuts, but not my dick more than just occasionally. My precum flows in rivers and I'll ask her to use one finger to smear it around on my cock. That feels so good. Eventually I am begging her to finish me with her mouth but since it's a hand job she refuses and just keeps gently finger stroking away, never actually wrapping her hand around my dick. Just touching and stroking, and sometimes using the end of several fingers to make a mouth feeling around my cock head. I've cummed this way before and left her hand a sticky mess. I especially like when she's just gently scratching around the outer edges of my nuts, near my thighs, with one hand while she fingertip teases my cock with the other. On the rare occassion that this started out as a hand job but she gets kind of into it, watching me, she will just go on and put her mouth on it and suck my whole dick right in. I'm only about 6 inches and she can take the whole thing. Years ago, she'd always let me blow off in her mouth, but then she began having me tell her when I was about to and she'd pull off and finish with her hands. In the last year I have stopped telling her so I normally get the first (worst) blast in her mouth before she can pull off. She hasn't minded so I continue. I hope soon that I can work her back up and get her used to just taking my full load. Like I said, she doesn't have to swallow, I'd prefer otherwise. She has big beautiful D cup titties that she really likes sucked, and they look great covered in my cum. I'm going to work on her about letting me dirty service that twat, too. She needs it, she just doesn't know it, but I need it worse than she does.
Since the time I was old enough to think about sex I knew I was more turned on by hand jobs and blowjobs than I was just plain intercourse. At first it was just all about getting my own cock sucked or stroked, but over the years I have discovered that just watching porn where a woman gives a good hand job or blowjob is just about as enjoyable as getting one myself.
Now I find that the older I get the nastier I need to be with all of this. I've thought about this and this is what I came up with. I'm not just turned on by the idea of "a blowjob", but more the idea of "a dirty nasty blowjob" being done by someone fully willing to get down on their knees and be dirty, and also realize they like that dirty feeling they get while they're doing it.
First of all, sucking a dick is sort of a dirty thing to do, to put that in your mouth at all. That's what I think attracts me to it, because it's such a dirty act. Second, the woman knowing that if she continues, she'll soon have a mouthful of cum as a result. This combined with the third factor, that a woman knows this and still continues to suck that dick, on purpose and with applied effort to get that result, it's like she's trying to earn it, and this is a big turn on for me, that she knows a mouthful of cum is coming and she's going to do the job necessary to get it. Fourth, she finally gets that load as a reward for her efforts. The thought of that as payment earned for her services performed is also a huge turn on. Fifth, for me, I like to think of a guy thanking her for her job performance, as if love has nothing at all to do with it, it was totally just a service provided by someone he might not even know. He used her mouth to unload and she let him and even helped out by working on him to get it. All this is such a turn on, I can hardly stand it.
For me, a big bonus is if she doesn't swallow. Instead she should keep his cock in her mouth as he cums, continue her head bobbing action until he's fully finished and let his dick fill her mouth up with cum, let it overflow and dribble out on her lips and down off of her chin onto her tits, all while she just continues to suck and lick right on as if it hasn't even happened. She ends up being very nasty and has cum all over her mouth and chin, neck and tits. Before she's done she'll have it on her hands and in her hair also, and hard to say where all else. That is extremely satisfying to think about, her getting cum all over her from being sloppy with it, not to mention the feeling she provided while he shot his load in her mouth and she just continued to suck on, never stopping until he says she can.
That brings me to this next point. For me, a blowjob must always, always, and always, end with a woman taking a man's cum in her mouth. I'm not really into facials for some reason, as nasty as that would be. She is doing a service and that's the job. She gets him there with her mouth and she finishes him with her mouth. It's also about the feeling, so she takes a load in her mouth to make sure his dick can spasm, shoot, shoot again, and feel its best, all with her lips, tongue, and cheeks still doing their best to slob away on that cock and get the last drop of cum his nuts have to offer. Her hand should be on his balls to tease and tug to make sure she gets it all and give him the best possible overall experience her mouth has to offer.
When it comes to eating pussy I want to provide the best possible experience my mouth is humanly able to, and train for stamina and technique to prolong and heighten her experience in the future. I have been really turned on by that lately, and the sloppier the better. I find myself wanting to be dirtier and dirtier, and go down low and lick her ass and tongue her hole to give her a great time. I want to feel her hands pushing my face into her twat, and hear her tell me she's getting close to cumming so I can continue my same action and pace and drive her over the edge in waves of sexual release as she just soaks my mouth and smears my face in her pussy while she's cumming. I want my mouth wide open and my lips just slobbing away on her twat when that happens, giving it all I have while my hands fondle her breasts and touch her body to enhance it all, or maybe grip her hips to pull her puss into my mouth. This is an equal turn on for me as much as a dirty sloppy messy blowjob, and I get so aroused thinking of sucking and licking a pussy to a crushing orgasm that I jerked off twice yesterday just dreaming of sucking my wife off. I want it so much. My wife is not into this at all and very very rarely lets me do it and I am feeling the need to do this so much I have actually had thoughts of looking for someone who will just let me dirty service them, though I would never act on it. Maybe I just need to approach it differently. But, just like a blowjob, a good twat servicing must always end with my mouth just absolutely plastered to her pussy while she cums on my face. I mean just slobbing away like it's the best apple pie I ever tasted, rubbing her lips with my lips while she screams don't stop, keep going. My tongue aching from the work I have just done to earn it but still buried between her lips when she covers it with her juices. Her body quivering and her clit tingling from the tongue flicking I have just given it. I want to be sopping wet from my chin to my chest from her pussy and my saliva when she's finished cumming, just drenched. I feel an absolute desire to have my face just buried in her crotch servicing her when and as she cums. If it could be posible, I'd continue on so she could cum again, just so I could remain a dirty mess a while longer and hopefully get even messier from her second orgasm. I'd probably jack myself to a cum while serving her needs, or else give her a rest, let her recover, and have her suck me to a cum as described above, and then thank her for services rendered.
Honestly, if I thought my wife would be content to just dirty service me and be dirty serviced right back every night, I'd hardly ever have intercourse sex again.
Besides mouths on dicks and twats, there are also those sweet hands. When my wife isn't really into a blowjob (her's are never as good as I described, but were close once) and doesn't want sex herself, I can usually get her to stroke me off. I like it best with no lube. I keep my hair trimmed down very short on my balls so she can gently tease, fondle, and cup them and I can feel it all well. I like for her to tease me to frustrating levels just touching my nuts, but not my dick more than just occasionally. My precum flows in rivers and I'll ask her to use one finger to smear it around on my cock. That feels so good. Eventually I am begging her to finish me with her mouth but since it's a hand job she refuses and just keeps gently finger stroking away, never actually wrapping her hand around my dick. Just touching and stroking, and sometimes using the end of several fingers to make a mouth feeling around my cock head. I've cummed this way before and left her hand a sticky mess. I especially like when she's just gently scratching around the outer edges of my nuts, near my thighs, with one hand while she fingertip teases my cock with the other. On the rare occassion that this started out as a hand job but she gets kind of into it, watching me, she will just go on and put her mouth on it and suck my whole dick right in. I'm only about 6 inches and she can take the whole thing. Years ago, she'd always let me blow off in her mouth, but then she began having me tell her when I was about to and she'd pull off and finish with her hands. In the last year I have stopped telling her so I normally get the first (worst) blast in her mouth before she can pull off. She hasn't minded so I continue. I hope soon that I can work her back up and get her used to just taking my full load. Like I said, she doesn't have to swallow, I'd prefer otherwise. She has big beautiful D cup titties that she really likes sucked, and they look great covered in my cum. I'm going to work on her about letting me dirty service that twat, too. She needs it, she just doesn't know it, but I need it worse than she does.
