I have had several crushes, and have fallowed my urges. The latest was an advance I made to an intern on my staff. She filed a complaint and I lost my job.

I told my family and friends that I resigned (mid school year and without another job). They know something happened. I love coaching, I love my students, but I am constantly in love with one of my students. Fortunately I made an advance on my intern and not a student.

My friend that acts as my bf is very upset with me. He wants me to elope with him. He can support me easily, so I don't have to work (this would explain why I resigned). No one knows in my family or friends, except for my bf and he is confident that if I am away from temptation I can control my urges. This means I give up coaching all together.

I do not want to accept my sexuality, it embarrasses me. It just won't go away. I know, he knows, but no one else does. My head tells me to get married, move to his house, live a normal life. My heart doesn't feel that way.