You know you can't forget it. You can't push the memory away it becomes part of who you are. The first time you reach out and hold a truly big thick cock in your hand. The way it's heaviness weighs down in your Palm fingers stretched trying to meet around its thickness. The warmth and hardness and so soft all at the same time I felt the veins rippling as he moved himself into position over me. It's length nine inches or so twice the size of mine I was so excited and trembling in fear not because he put his hand on the back of my head guiding my mouth to suck him with firm grip but I was afraid because my back had started arching without me consciously moving it. You see I was excited and afraid because I was already anticipating him fucking me I knew I couldn't stop what was happening I just had to give him whatever he wanted and he knew it. You see I have wanted to have sex with a man and be the girl for years crossdressing in private masturbating like a girl fingering myself and playing with a few toys but had never actually had a real partner. My friend of late who I'd shared my deep secret had broken my confidence as I learned that night I was walking to my truck when a total stranger approached and told me he knew inviting me up to his apartment to talk openly but I was so embarrassed I couldn't talk and now his patients seemed lacking or maybe his sexual need to take what he wanted was in control at any rate now my clothes on the floor except for the pink girly panties on me. For the first time ever being seen in panties and bra on my knees so exciting! Not in control at all he pushed his huge cock to the back of my throat holding it there even as I gagged he wouldn't pull it out and he said that's how baby that's how you do it that's a good girl. I looked up at him my eyes watering from gagging tears running down my cheaks he was smiling and pulled me up kissing my neck and groaping me between my legs stopping only to grab my ass sliding his strong fingers inside my panties fondling my tight hole I gasped because it felt so good my legs were like jelly I could barely stand but arched my back more pushing my ass out to welcome his advances both of my hands holding onto his hard manmeat as if to try somehow to control it but it was only making the situation worse and now it was time. He pushed me backwards into his lazyboy chair and as I landed his hands grabbed my hips sliding me forward in the softness of the chair until my butt was just over the edge sort of hanging off and before I could catch up mentally to the moment and swift movement my knees landed into my chest and slid off to each side his strong arm's folding me up pinning me down helplessness consumed my mind as my ass was so exposed now. Mark laughed out loud and started rubbing his hardness all over my silk panties my hairless balls and dick trapped inside and my tight hole was aching, tingling, throbbing every time his cock pushed against I moaned with pleasure and then he reached around pulling my panties aside his big cock head found me and as it rest in position the whole world seemed to stop my mind rushed with fear he was so big and could I take it? would he hurt me? Would he have mercy? I herd him say there's lube on the table next to you but I didn't respond fast enough and he raised his voice telling me to take the bottle and squirt some lube in his hand this time I did as told and with a shaky voice pleaded with him to go slow but he didn't listen he just did what he wanted to do as I squirmed underneath his body weight unable to stop him it penetrated forcibly invading my highness stretched to the limit and full of his hot hard cock I was simply paralyzed my eyes rolled back in my head my mouth wide open he began to slowly pump more and more up inside of me while telling me to give it to him give it up slut that's my tight c**t you want to be fucked good don't you baby that's a good girl. Oh my god by now so full of him it felt so good. My ass stuffed I moaned in a higher girl voice with each movement all of my manhood slipping away with each thrust I loved it being fucked and used as a woman giving myself to him and crying out with pain but mostly pure pleasure. When he flipped me over on the chair to finish me doggie I pushed my ass up high in the air for him I wanted it without reservation I really can't explain the absolute inside and out pleasure he gave to me fucked harder now slapping my face and ass pinching my nipples dirty talking me something happened and I lost it. Suddenly my ass locked around marks huge cock trying to tighten uncontrollable waves rocked trough me as if in slow motion I could feel every centimeter of his hard swollen cock sliding in and out and then I exploded my cum streaming right through my pink panties splattering onto the chair and my thighs I cried out yes Mark yes fuck me take my pussy! Of course when he came I swallowed a slut always swallows right? I confess for yrs I called it my ass but he changed me.. now I call it my pussy.