I was a very curious kid and hence I came across sexual sensation while rubbing against one of my relative's(boy of my age)body.It was a great feeling and we started practicing it(kissing, naked,ejaculation).It used to be a great fun .I found two more relatives interested in this and I started having sex with them.I even sucked their cocks and took it anally once(very painful).I used to be alone at home so my sexual desires grew. I used to sleep with my cousin sister and rubbing against her till ejaculation without being in her notice.I generated sexual feelings very strongly.Now I have realised my mistakes but the past keeps on haunting me. I cannot resist any sexual thoughts about anyone.I try to forget everything but I am frustrated sometimes.I had wetdreams about even my mother and sister. The thoughts have affected me so much that I sometimes feel insecure from men sexually. Their cocks appear to me in thought process. But I am improving it and I strongly wanted to unleash my this darkest side.