I turned 30 unmarried and unattached. My younger sister showed off her second child. I got a lot of questions about my love life and why I wasn't married and getting along with growing up. I was half accused of having a relationship with my roommate. I am not gay. I am not into sex either. It disgusts me. Penises disgust me. The idea of a penis turns me off. But I repeat I am not gay, I don't want to have sex with a girl. I think naked girls are much more attractive than naked guys, but who doesn't.

I got so much shit from my family for not being married and not having kids. I told my roommate and her advise was to get knocked up and have a kid and shut them up. Of course that was crazy. I mean just getting knocked up to shut them up. But she told her brother that I needed to get knocked up.

He actually came over for that reason, she told me that is why he was there. He would only do what was necessary. I had never shown myself naked to any guy, at least not on purpose. She told me that if I didn't want to watch, then to just let him do it from behind. But that I had to let him do it, it wasn't going to happen just talking about it. I had to lose my virginity sometime, why not like this.

Literally she had me lean over the couch and put my hands on the cushions, she took off my pants and she told him to play with himself to get an erection and to put it in me. She had him come over for three days in a row and we did the same thing.

Now I have a baby girl. My roommate and I are raising her. There are times, not often, when I think about letting him do it again. I have laid on my back naked and though what it would be like to have him get on me. I don't even know if he would be interested. Anyway it is just an idea. I am happy with my baby, happier than I thought I would be. I love sharing her with my roommate and I love how maternal she is with her. After all she is her aunt.