I was so disappointed when he left almost mad at him but it was so strange how he used me because I hadn't experienced anything like this before. Yes I'd had gay sex with a few men I mean I was thirty when I took my first hard cock up my virgin butt and of course completely ruined after that. Being used sexually as if I'm a girl really gets me off and some men really like using a bottom dressed in stockings and panties or maybe a dress maybe even a little make up. I usually make it a couple of years before I give in and find a partner for this kind of sex but it always happens I just can't seem to shake it it's as if I need it and I guess I do. I'd waited long enough this time and the uncontrollable urge for panties and soft girly clothes was pushing me on. It was time to get fucked by a big dick stud so I used a local gay dating hotline to seek out potential hook up finding a guy late one night who just wanted head simply just a blow job and he wanted to watch straight porn while being sucked at my place so after talking on the phone for a while I agreed and made sure he didn't mind if I sucked him while wearing panties and a pretty top not that I'm passable but because it really turns me on. He said he wouldn't mind at all and in fact would enjoy the experience. About 1:00am the phone rang and I was ready as he pulled into my drive way I'd been watching a lot of straight porn but had a anal movie in for him to watch and maybe I was thinking he'd watch some sexy young woman getting banged up the ass while I sucked him and just maybe he'd want to fuck me or at least I hoped he would. Now or never I nervously opened the door and greeted him wearing pink and white cotton panties thigh high socks and a really cute light blue top that zips up the front he smiled right away and sat on my couch in front of the TV. I asked if he wanted a drink being a good host or hostess in this case but he declined and said I'm here to get a blow job come over to me and get between my legs baby. Oh I was so horny and melted when he called me baby he stood up and dropped his pants then sat back down me on my knees between his legs his thick 8 inch cock already hard there was no time to waste he pulled me onto it my mouth watering as he rubbed dick all over my face slapping my cheeks and for head with it and grunting with a nasty pleasure.... He told me to take as much as I could in my mouth at a time and then to pull it out making a popping noise he said that's what he liked so that's what I did over and over stopping to catch my spit as it ran down my lips and his cock and back at it again down on him as far as I could then pop out of my mouth he just moaned and watched the porn not paying much attention to me except for his hand on the back of my head his grip was getting stronger and I was really confused and shocked when he started pulling my hair on the up and shoving my head down gagging me hard. He said bitch look at me you little slut look at me you faggot you like my big cock in your throat! don't you gag bitch! real girls don't like being gagged on cock but you do don't you! It was so insulting how could he call me a faggot why did he do that I'm trying to please him and he's insulting me my mind raced with confusion what the hell? And just then he exploded in my mouth and not a little cum I mean more cum than I'd ever seen his big balls just kept pumping more and more hot cum into my mouth he's holding my head down there's no escape gagging on his cum his cock sliding around in my mouth I didn't want to swallow but had no choice finally he gave me relief letting go of my hair I pulled off of him gasping for air tears streamed down my face. What the fuck! I said. why did you do that as I got up and went to the bathroom to clean my mouth of cum looking in the mirror his juice was running down my neck it was in my hair and smeared across my face. I guess maybe I should be called a faggot if I look like this I thought to myself. Then I cleaned myself up like a pretty girl should and went back to the couch where he was still watching porn but before I could say anything he pulled me down next to him putting his arms around me he said it's okay pretty baby don't be mad I couldn't help it your so hot and sexy just relax let me hold you. We watched more ass fucking on the TV oh my god it made me so horny I wanted to be impaled on his big cock I wanted him to breed me and shoot all that sticky cum in my tight ass the porn him holding me I was in heat so I asked him if he wanted me to suck his cock again? He said no but he wanted me to neal down in front of him and play with myself while he watched so back on my knees I went rubbing my smooth cock inside my panties I arched my back and moved very slowly as if riding a cock I wanted him to want me suddenly he sat up on the edge of the couch and unzipped my cute top a little so he could pinch my nipples then as he pinched softly he began French kissing me I was losing it his hand on me his strong kissing sent me into another world yes baby he whispered in my ear one hand holding the back of my neck the other pinching my sensitive nipples. I was rubbing my cock through my panties and precum made my cock easily slide between my own legs so as I rubbed it was more like rubbing my pussy then jacking off Oh yes sweetheart he whispered Oh yes as his voice grew stronger cum for me baby you dirty little faggot you are a faggot admit it to me now and you will cum baby say it now ! Say it now! Just then I said it I'm a faggot and my cum gushes out of me soaking my cotton panties I rubbed harder my sticky treat dripping on the floor oh yes you are a fucking dirty fag. Then he got up and walked straight out the door I haven't seen him since. Honestly what an ass I can't stand him.I don't ever want to see him again But honestly honestly if he would fuck me with that big cock of his he could call me a faggot he wants. That fucking bastard.