Bi-Sexual Male / 46
Embarrassing moment? How about embarrassing life. I'm 56 years old and male. I have two medical conditions that have caused me to experience never ending non stop eternal humiliation. First is acute gynecomastia. Basically that's tits on a guy. About half the obese male population has some form of gynecomastia, man boobs. But much more rarely guys who are not necessarily obese get man boobs. Then there is the rare unlucky guy with really big boobs. I am 5 feet five inches tall and weigh 125 lbs and wear a 50h bra. That's right, I have to wear a bra, a fucking bra! It's been that way since puberty. Mind you, it's not because I'm a cross dresser, I'm not. But if I don't wear one it hurts like hell. I learned that from my Mom. The second medical condition is called microphalus. That basically means I have a tiny penis. I believe they consider a guy to have microphalus if their dick is under 5 inches. I wish my penis was as big as 5 inches. Mine is an inch and a quarter long and half an inch thick. Worse yet it is deformed and shaped more like a clitoris. My pee hole isn't at the end either. It's at the base and my foreskin looks more like a clitoral hood. There is a slight crease that runs down the center of my scrotum and my balls are fairly small thought not so much as my penis. In other words, with my pubic hair being relatively bushy, down there, I look like a woman. Imagine being set up on a blind date with a fat chick who knows I have man boobs and upon meeting she is absolutely convinced I'm a shemale? That has happened more than once. Basically, I'm a friggin girl who can get you pregnant. I even have a high pitched voice though not high enough to really sound like a woman most of the time.
My medical insurance won't cover breast reduction because I've never found a doctor who could thought it was medically necessary. There is even less hope for my dick, or clit as every woman who has ever seen me naked has called it. Even my own doctor sometimes forgets and calls it a clit.
High school was the worst. My doctor would NOT give me a note for gym class so every single week twice a week for four long agonizing humiliating years I had to shower with the boys being called every horrible name in the book. Frequently I was shoved to my knees and made to suck off my class mates being called sissy. More frequently than that I was beat up. My gym teacher said "It's your own damned fault for letting yourself get that way!" as if there was something I could have done about it.
Finding work has been a huge challenge. Nobody takes a guy seriously if he has tits the size of basketballs, is obviously wearing a bra and has a high pitched voice. I can't get a job working with the public. I can't ever be any kind of manager where I have to work with people. So my life has been one of working shit jobs getting shit pay. For the last ten years I've been a draw bridge operator. I go in, sit down in my little space, lock the door, take off my clothes and jerk off to internet porn in between raising and lowering the draw bridge. I'm lucky they provide me with an internet connection or I'd go insane with boredom. I'm also lucky the windows are one way so nobody can see in but I can see out. The booth isn't that big but it's big enough. I get a desk with the controls build in. I get a bunch of security cameras to watch. I've got a fridge, microwave, hot plate and most important, a toilet. I also have a telephone. It doesn't pay a lot, $15 an hour. But it pays well enough to live on. Before that I worked 3rd shift cremating bodies and that paid $9 an hour. Actually, the job I have isn't that bad. But it took many years before I found it and some convincing for them to hire me. The Bridge is owned by the county so it's a government job which means really good benefits so I suppose I don't have much to complain about.
What I'd really like is to meet a woman who would not mind dating a guy who looks like a woman but not an especially pretty one but who has a very tiny penis. If you're a lesbian and are turned off by penises or at least normal size or normal looking ones you might me suitable, especially if you want to be with a woman or extremely feminine guy who has a clit instead of a penis and who could get you pregnant (though not the normal way since I can't fuck.).
And that takes me to my biggest disappointment in life. I can't actually fuck. It's not long enough. When I was 17 I tried to fuck an 11 year old girl. First she wouldn't stop laughing at me. Kind of hard to get it up while someone is laughing at you. Second, It just wasn't long enough to reach her hymen no matter how hard I pushed myself into her. Basically if your dick isn't long enough to reach an 11 year old girl's hymen it's not actually a dick and you can't call what you do with it fucking. She did let me lick her though. At least I have that. When I jerk off mostly I'm rubbing it with a vibrator. I can squirt a load of cum though. My clit get's very hard from it and feels really good when I do it or of course I wouldn't do it. It's just not big enough to fuck a virgin child with let along a woman.
My medical insurance won't cover breast reduction because I've never found a doctor who could thought it was medically necessary. There is even less hope for my dick, or clit as every woman who has ever seen me naked has called it. Even my own doctor sometimes forgets and calls it a clit.
High school was the worst. My doctor would NOT give me a note for gym class so every single week twice a week for four long agonizing humiliating years I had to shower with the boys being called every horrible name in the book. Frequently I was shoved to my knees and made to suck off my class mates being called sissy. More frequently than that I was beat up. My gym teacher said "It's your own damned fault for letting yourself get that way!" as if there was something I could have done about it.
Finding work has been a huge challenge. Nobody takes a guy seriously if he has tits the size of basketballs, is obviously wearing a bra and has a high pitched voice. I can't get a job working with the public. I can't ever be any kind of manager where I have to work with people. So my life has been one of working shit jobs getting shit pay. For the last ten years I've been a draw bridge operator. I go in, sit down in my little space, lock the door, take off my clothes and jerk off to internet porn in between raising and lowering the draw bridge. I'm lucky they provide me with an internet connection or I'd go insane with boredom. I'm also lucky the windows are one way so nobody can see in but I can see out. The booth isn't that big but it's big enough. I get a desk with the controls build in. I get a bunch of security cameras to watch. I've got a fridge, microwave, hot plate and most important, a toilet. I also have a telephone. It doesn't pay a lot, $15 an hour. But it pays well enough to live on. Before that I worked 3rd shift cremating bodies and that paid $9 an hour. Actually, the job I have isn't that bad. But it took many years before I found it and some convincing for them to hire me. The Bridge is owned by the county so it's a government job which means really good benefits so I suppose I don't have much to complain about.
What I'd really like is to meet a woman who would not mind dating a guy who looks like a woman but not an especially pretty one but who has a very tiny penis. If you're a lesbian and are turned off by penises or at least normal size or normal looking ones you might me suitable, especially if you want to be with a woman or extremely feminine guy who has a clit instead of a penis and who could get you pregnant (though not the normal way since I can't fuck.).
And that takes me to my biggest disappointment in life. I can't actually fuck. It's not long enough. When I was 17 I tried to fuck an 11 year old girl. First she wouldn't stop laughing at me. Kind of hard to get it up while someone is laughing at you. Second, It just wasn't long enough to reach her hymen no matter how hard I pushed myself into her. Basically if your dick isn't long enough to reach an 11 year old girl's hymen it's not actually a dick and you can't call what you do with it fucking. She did let me lick her though. At least I have that. When I jerk off mostly I'm rubbing it with a vibrator. I can squirt a load of cum though. My clit get's very hard from it and feels really good when I do it or of course I wouldn't do it. It's just not big enough to fuck a virgin child with let along a woman.
