It was in the driveway of my house, on my first car date that I put a penis in my mouth. I wasn't going to be allowed out of the car until I put his penis in my mouth.

I felt bad afterwards, I was 15 and I had gone on a car date, my parents had given me strict instructions on how to behave, but I still let him force me to put his penis in my mouth.

He came to my house and we were upstairs on the sofa watching television, and he whispered to me that he wanted me to suck on his penis again. I told him to go to hell. He took his penis out and told me that is what girls do, they suck cock. He sat there with his penis out and I stood there until I gave in and went over and sucked his penis. This time I sucked him, and he told me how to do it. My parents were both downstairs out by the pool.

I quit and went downstairs to sit with my parents. He came down a bit later and he talked with my dad about his football at school. He had just had me upstairs sucking on his penis and he just sat there and talked to my dad. When he left and we walked out to his car he told me that I had done a good job but not a great job, he wanted a blow job, and my job was to make him cum. If I didn't give him a blow job then he wanted to fuck me. Either way he wanted to cum inside of me, my mouth or my vagina.

I practiced a lot giving him blow jobs. I got to the point where I could make him cum, sometimes I could make him cum just with my hand. Everything was ok.

On my 16th birthday my parents gave me a car. Part of what my dad told me is that I got the car because I was responsible, I made good grades. On my first drive with him, he made me drive to this old road outside of town and said we were going to break in the car and he wanted to fuck. The car was a two door Civic. We weren't able to get in the back seat, so he took my pants off and I had to lay on the grass and dirt to get fucked. When we got home he came into the house and had this long conversation with my dad about how nice my car was and that I was lucky to get a new car for my birthday.

I stayed attached to him until he graduated and then we drifted apart. I didn't give anyone else a blow job or fucked anyone until I went to work. I thought I knew everything but with a man it is different than when I was a kid.

I still do what I am told. I have no backbone. I'm a pleaser. I don't take a stand. I didn't with my first boyfriend and I don't with my current boyfriend.

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by Anonymous on Oct 8, 2016 at 4:47 AM

I like your confession. Recently I heard a quote. Everything in life is about sex. Except Sex. Sex is about power. Your boyfriend used his power to make you submit your will to him. You like strong willed men. Most women do, whether they admit it or not.

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by Anonymous on Jul 8, 2018 at 12:31 AM

Sounds like you should work on your self-esteem, and would like to.

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