I was sort of dating his guy and not being careful I got pregnant. When I told him, he was 'well that really fucks things up". It turned out that he had another girl pregnant.

One thing led to another and I demanded to meet the other girl. She was older than me, about four years and she was busting out pregnant. She was pretty, but she had gained a lot of weight and she was big all over. She was upset that he had gotten me pregnant, but she was more scared of having the baby. She lived alone and did not have any family close by, not that she thought they would help. Being a local Hispanic girl, I had lots of family, and I took her to meet them. Especially my grandmother and I asked her to help.

I was going through all the morning sickness stuff, but not showing yet, so my pregnancy was not an immediate need but hers was. All these women around her made her uncomfortable and most of them spoke Spanish and they adopted her. When her baby came she had lots of support and she stayed with my grandmother. As she lost weight I gained weight and got bigger and bigger. Soon I was the one about to give birth and she and all of my relatives were around me just waiting.

After my baby was born, she and I decided to room together. We shared a garage apartment in my neighborhood. By then she had lost most of her baby weight and she looked amazing, at least to me. As I lost my baby weight, we started to compare sizes and we were not that different, she was size 8 and I am size 6. We spent more and more time together, even having her go with me to church with my family.

Until one afternoon, when she kissed me. I took the kiss, but I still asked her what she was doing. She stood in front of me and kissed me again and asked me to tell her if I wanted to stop, because she wanted to keep on kissing me. Well kiss led to touching, and touching led to laying beside each other, and laying beside each other led to taking our clothes off, and that led to us having complete sex. After we were done, I asked her if that was her first time with a girl and she said no, she had liked girls for a long time, but it had been a while, before meeting our babies' father. I told her it was my first time.

We have become more than roommates and we have had sex many times. Neither one of us has had sex with a man since we met, she because she was too far along and me because I didn't want to make things worse. I don't miss a man right now, but I do think about it, somehow having sex and not having penetration with a penis feels incomplete. But I am not ready to go to a man right now. Right now I want to go as far as I can with her, maybe there is more to this than just sharing a baby father. Maybe we are meant to be together for more than a while. Maybe we will end up with a man again, but for now we are just going to do what we feel like doing. Which is being together.