I am the pastor at a fundamental Christian church. We used to be Southern Baptist but we are now independent because they have become far to liberal for our taste.

The problem is, I like men and I don't mean in a wholesome Christian kind of way. I love everything about them and I love getting fucked by them. My favorite is being "spit roasted" that is, getting fucked in my mouth and ass at the same time. I cant come out to the congregation because that would mean being fired instantly. We don't allow any gay people in our church at all let alone being in the ministry. But I just can't help loving gay sex. I pretended to be straight and married the woman my parents said wold be good for me. She discretely has affairs with black men, also not allowed in our membership because our congregation's leadership, me included, don't consider n****rs to be the same species and therefore they dont' have a soul. But for some reason my wife likes fucking n****rs. As for me, I adore fucking men. My wife thinks I fuck around with other women but honestly, I can't stand them. When I fucked my wife to get her pregnant I had to concentrate really hard and close my eyes and pretend I was fucking a nice hot 15 year old boy in the ass. That was the only thing that worked. I managed to get her pregnant and we have the kids to prove it but outside of reproduction, we are not interested in each other sexually. We even have separate bedrooms. But we are friends and like each other outside of sex and we enjoy having a family together. Our relationship is more like brother and sister except she doesn't know about me doing men which she wold view as worse than dating outside her species.