Been gay since my earliest awareness.

I guess I was about nine when my parents got this coffee table book about Italian art. I looked through it and I was attracted to all the paintings and statues of naked men. I spent hours sitting on the sofa looking at the book and touching the pages where a penis was shown. I would run my finger up and down the page, touching the page and touching my penis. I started to take my underpants off before I looked at the book.

I was around twelve when I was at a friend's house, his father was a doctor, and we got one his anatomy books and it had drawings of penises. He and I looked through the book to find all the penises. And then I had to pee and he came in with me and we both peed at the same time into the toilet and we sword fought until we were done, and standing there with our penises out we rubbed them against each other. We did not say a word, we just held our heads down and with our hands we rubbed each other with our penis. I was the first to give in and I got on my knees and put his penis in my mouth and sucked him. He reached out and pushed the bathroom door closed and I sucked him and when he told me to stop I looked up at him so he let me suck him some more.

We went to the bedroom and closed the door, and I dropped my pants and laid down on the bed and he got behind me and pushed his hard penis against my hole. It felt so good, I kept asking him for more but we quit before we were able to make it work. I sat on the bed and he sucked me.

We didn't do anything again for several weeks, then one afternoon he was on his back and I got down and unzipped him and sucked him again. His penis was hard, and I wanted him to fuck me. We tried hard, I was so frustrated, until we found some lotion in his parents bathroom and it did the trick and I got fucked. He said he stuck it in all the way and I bragged about how good it felt. After the fucking I kissed him on the lips.

We became regular fuck buddies, we fucked a lot and he learned to ejaculate. It took some time for us to figure out how to get him to ejaculate from a blow job. I liked eating his semen from the beginning.

Junior High and High School were rough places during our time there. There was lots of racial tension and we dated girls and at that time if you didn't fuck her you were a loser and if she didn't put out she didn't have a second date. There were lots of parties at kids houses when the parents weren't there and several girls got pregnant. It had been a long time since we had spent time together and although we were friends he and I sort of broke up.

It was not until college, and this maintenance man was fixing a lamp in my dorm room and he caught me staring at his bulge and he made a statement that I was one of those boys and he invited me to suck his dick. The door was locked and I sucked his dick. It was my first man and it was different. He wanted to face fuck me so I let him, I grabbed his dick hard in my hand and sucked him and he got his load off. I licked what fell on my lips but wiped the rest off. Through him I got involved in this underground gay circle.

There were professors and some businessmen and some workers, and there were a few of us college kids. We were mostly the girls and we were there to suck them off and get fucked. At those getogethers was a professor in his fifties and I fell in love with him. I became his steady and in addition to party sex, I would go to his apartment for one on one sex. He is the first man I really fell for.

Somehow, in spite of all the open sex while I was in college I never caught anything. After college it was hard to make friends at that time, especially if you were a bottom like me. I just did not look the part, I dated women, but was always on the look out for an opportunity. I finally broke into a group of gay professional men through a pilot who lived in my apartment complex. Like in college, this group of men got together for open sex, it was all about sex, just sex. You went and you had sex. Being in my twenties I was in the girl crowd along with some other guys and we were there to entertain older professional men who liked open forum sex.

I am now one of those older men who enjoy a romp with a nice young man. I am still primarily a bottom, but will top as well.

Our town is not San Francisco or New York, our town is Atlanta, and we have a very active community of like minded folks.