I'm self destructive when it comes to my sexual behaviour regarding the age of guys I meet are much older 60 up into 80's.This is all my actions that has put me on offer having old men enjoying my body as they go about doing sexual acts .thought of this is gross and sick to let old men do the things I've done.I was malestered that took place different times and not only one person so had a few ways this felt .I'm the one who keeps on doing this because of the pleasure of sex and getting excited during and after I leave feeling sick and wrong to find this sort of thing anything but dirty.
I've shave to feel young tight jocks acting as a boy for them to play with as I'm small build and not big in the penis area .ok I'm sure about my sickness and keep from being close to people as I'm so damaged hate if other new about this I'd kill myself as the same so heavy now