I often fantasize about sharing my wife with another man. I am not even the least bit jealous. I have seen other guys staring at her and eyeballing her ass, legs, etc. She is very conservative yet flirty in how she dresses. A gorgeous good girl and 5-9 120lbs loves to be in heels and is always at my side. I may share this with her since we have been together for about 7 years and we just have the best relationship discussions. She knows my previous wife was a bit promiscuous and that is a very nice understatement. She has told me how awful that must have been and I said this to her regarding how that all went.

The real truth is that my ex wife not only didnt love me enough to not deceive me, she didn't love herself enough to not fuck anything that had a dick once she had a few drinks in her. She and I had a rocky young wild relationship that spun out of control. She and I had an open arrangement that involved trust and sharing of information. For example, I would tell her one of her friends is cute or sexy and she would say either, ok of you both agree or hell no, not her.
We would be out with various friends and she would say the same thing to me about a guy and I would say yes if he was respectful or hell no if he was trouble and ego asshole. I loved that she would get dressed up and go out on a date with an "approved" guy and we had a 3 date rule before we were allowed to go through with it and we both discussed after each date. I know its odd but knowing she was going out with someone I approved of and on the 3rd or 4th date something was happening turned us both on. She felt the same way and looked forward to my going out with another woman. Safe sex was a must. For whatever reason this scenario worked well for us until my ex wife started drinking uncontrollably. She came in one night from work a bit drunk and carrying her heels. Hopped into bed and rolled over and fell asleep on me. The next morning when i got up to shower her panties were on the bathroom floor, soaked in dry cum.

When she woke up and saw what she left on the bathroom floor she immediately was apologetic but it was too late. My heart was broken. I realized it was an terrible situation and the trust factor was the issue. We agreed to stop the arrangement and went back to a customary traditional marriage but the thrill is now gone. Basically we were young swingers with respectful limits for each others feelings, SAFETY, and most importantly trust. After 6 months or so, she sometimes came home a bit late, 1-2 hours and it was apparent she had been fucking around. I would hit the strip clubs and periodically seek a bj in the VIP areas. I was sent home from work early one day and she didn't answer the phone when I offered to pick up lunch and i walked in on her and 2 guys just in time to see #2 finishing up cumming in her mouth. Sounds hot, but it made me emotionally sick to my stomach. and to answer the question of what did she do? She swallowed then screamed what are you doing home and covered her naked body. The 2 guys got up and left quickly. I knew both of them and they knew our arrangement but knew that this was NOT how this is supposed to happen. I asked her to leave and she spent the next 6 months screwing everyone she wanted and many that i new personally. I finally confronted her and asked her why is she trying to fuck everyone that i know. She confessed that she wanted me back but needed to be truthful. She fucked my best friend and best man when she went home for a family funeral and it has been eating away at her for years. She couldn't look at me without being drunk and could not take that fact that i would hate her once i found out. Well I forgave her, divorced her, let my best friend off the hook about 10 years later and let him know it really wasn't what he thought it was. She just wanting a 1 night stand with him. He didn't get it so I told him we had an open arrangement but with approvals only. Unknown others was off limits.

So here is my dilemma,
20 years later after divorcing my first wife and now I can't get the thought out of my head of watching my sexy and sweet, wild yet conservative wife, on her knees getting gang banged by cock. She loves me so i should just keep it in my fantasy of my head. But when we are having sex i keep imagining her with another cock in her mouth. When she is giving me head, i imagine her getting pounded doggy stile. and when she is being social butterfly in the bar or at a party. I get so turned on watching the guys flirt with her, lean in and whisper to her, put an hand on her lower back an stare at her legs or ass as she walks by. I want to watch her tease a guy, take him aside and then get on her knees and swallow his cock. Any suggestions? i'm thinking we do the "i would never ever cheat or hurt you role play" but tonight we are going to play a pretend game of you are single and I want to see you do (blank) tell me how it would go.