So it finally happened,,,,,,,I now know what it's like to feel like a bitch.....so it all started a few weeks ago my craigslist search looking for a guy to experiment with worked and well I tried bottoming for the first time ever by choice, well the other nights I don't know what brought me to do this but I emailed the guy again, nervous non the less determined to do this 1 more time, I would try gay sex 1 more time before I decided if I liked this or not, not thinking or caring I agreed to do this again with him, it wasn't until I got the "here"message I realized "what am I doing??? " I coulda ignored and made an excuse but there I am trembling, confused terrified shaking so bad I can't zip my coat, I go to his vehicle as we drive quietly not a word said get there and go right inside, there we are face to face no words were exchanged I figured "just shut up get on your knees no backing down now, his flaccid dick in my face dangling I stick my tounge out and feel his hands grip my head jamming his soft penis in my mouth slowly getting harder moving my head or thrusting his cock in my mouth till its rock solid he raised me up to the bed and put me on my back, when I see him start to put my dick in his mouth I start to cry realizing this is happening, when he scoots me back further, and pulls out a cup with what I thought was vasoline but turned out to be cocoa butter, lubing himself and the outside of my but hole, he lifts my body and had my legs over his shoulders,there I am looking him in the face and I had to close my eyes I didn't want him to know I was crying, there I felt it my ass was getting pierced I whimpered "no....no ....no"the more he tried I finally gave up when he was balls deep and realized he wasn't gonna stop, there I am in missionary position on my back in my head hoping this would end soon, I was overwhelmed in shame, I was embarrassed, and felt humiliated that I couldn't stop what was happening he eventually dropped my legs off and on going at what pace he desire, when I felt a twitch and the words that came out of my mouth I'm still in disbelief I said "pull out not in me I'll do anything I'll swallow" I opened my eyes and I seen the creepiest scariest grim ever as he kept pumping I heard "you ready for cum" I whispered "no " when I felt him crawl on my chest there it was in my face again straight from my ass with out warning the tip was in my mouth as he let out this mighty grunt and slammed his hands against the wall he let out a huge amount of cum filling my mouth I had no other choice I already agreed hw climbed off and as I tried to get outta the bed he pressed on my body forcing me to lay down he said "you have to finish, I wanna see you cum knowing you took it like a nice little girl" I didn't wanna fight it so I started to masterbate while crying I finally busted which seemed to really get him off he drove me home silent, the whole ride there and hours after I layed there in regret be cuz now I knew what it's like to be a bitch