I have been married to my wife (K) since I was 19 years old. While I went to school with her, she was 2 classes behind me, I didn't start dating her until the year after I graduated. She was the second girl that I'd ever had dated. The other girl, (G) was in her class and I dated her when I was still in high school. I loved and respected G and while we enjoyed some very heavy petting sessions, we never had sex. It wasn't that she didn't want to but she told me that she was only going to have sexy with her husband and if we got engaged I could make love to her. I guess that I had a bit too much integrity and honesty as I told her that as much as I loved her I was too young to make a decision like that.
We broke up and she moved to another school district. I was finishing high school, I had earned a baseball scholarship and while I was 17 and thought that I was on top of the world there was something. I tracked down G and asked her if she wanted to go to my senior prom. She quickly accepted, I had told her how I was going to college and she was happy for me. It was funny as that time we were separated was nothing as we were comfortable with each other like nothing had ever happened. I was going to surprise her after the prom and ask her to marry me.
I took her to my Prom, It was a great evening, when we danced we couldn't keep our hands off each other. Afterwards when I drove her home, I stopped at my house to change out of my tux. My parents were asleep and we started to make out on the living room couch. I don't quite remember how or why but she slipped out of her gown and shortly after I slipped her panties off. It was the first time that I'd ever seen her completely naked. I kissed all over her body and was going to beautiful pussy, I blurted out that I loved her and that I wanted her, not just now but forever.
That when it stopped. She bolted up and told me that she was so sorry, she still had deep feelings of love for me but she wasn't going to be cruel and mislead me anymore. She was engaged to an older man and she was going to quit school to marry him, but that she wanted to go to a prom at least once. That he knew we used to go together but he was alright with this. I wish that I would be able to write that I had made love to her anyway, but that news crushed me so I helped her get dressed and then took her home. They got married a few months later and shortly after that she died in a car accident.
I guess that affected me more than I thought as I had one very successful season, but my grades were horrible and I lost my scholarship. So I got a job and cut my schedule and started to enjoy life. That when I met K. She was going into her senior year. It was funny how we met as I wasn't looking for any companionship that night, she was with a friend and honestly I felt more attracted to her but K latched onto me. Had a lot of fun being with her and while we didn't have sex that first date, we did on the second.
I guess that I got confused with lust and love, combined with the loss of G, I didn't want to make the mistake of losing out again so I proposed to her after 4 months. She said yes, but wanted to keep it our secret until she graduated. That April she toldmethat she was pregnant, I was caught off guard but really after I thought about it I was happy and started to plan how I was going to support her. I quit college and joined the service, as the job that I had was going to do anything for us and the medical and GI Bill would get us back on our feet and then we'd be okay.
It wasn't an easy life. Ups and downs, We have 5 children and I made the service a career. We moved back home and bought a house. That's when some serious problems started. She became very detached from me. Wanted more time with her family and friends, Then menopause came and she didn't want to be intimate it was such a messy chore. I ended up having an affair with a coworker. All I can say about that is I am sorry but it's hard to say no when your with someone that wants to be with you.
I lived with that shame and guilt for 8 years in a sexless marriage. Then I find out that she has been carrying on in an "emotional affair" for 4 years with classmate. That she was trying to get him to comitt to her so she could leave, she didn't want to divorce me till she had a replacement. Oh, and why or how can you reconnect to someone after all of those years? Well she was screwing him the whole time we were going together and there was a good chance that our oldest daughter was his.
Now you would have suppose that I would have done the smart thing and divorced that bitch. No we are still married. Her man wouldn't have her, I honestly did not have the heart to embarrass her in front of her family and frankly am not interested in sex with her anymore either.