Well I suppose I should start by saying this is my confession.

When I was in school (15yrs old) I was picked on because of my looks (chubby, geeky nerd) friends with the openly gay student etc... but to me he was just the childhood friend I grew up with and at this point in time I did not have any feelings sexual or otherwise about men, in fact I did not have much romantic feelings in general. I preferred to study, to go camping and kayaking with friends from outside the school.

Now most of my friends were older than me, I was quite mature for my age, I suppose that comes from having to grow up early when my parents separated and I had to help raise my little bro.

Now my feelings towards men didn't start to grow until I was 16 and having just left school to find work to support myself, I didn't want to let my dad support me as he had already given me so much growing up.

I gained employment at the local supermarket stacking shelves in the evening, as well as a part time job helping with deliveries with the local man with a van.

I guess you could say working helped me to shed those last social inhibitions as I became more outgoing and started to really enjoy more in life.

I gained new friends, new outlooks etc...

I was still a bit chubby but was now growing into both my height and build ( I'm still a bit chubby even now) and was looking less like an awkward teen and more like a strong hard working young man.

It was as I was working that I grew close to the man in the van, who in this I will simply call Dave. He was in his mid 30's and yes you could look and say that this was grooming or the age difference but I did not act on my growing feelings until I was 18, he was simply at the time a mentor and friend.

We talked about everything and anything, from books to music, to current events; who says you need college or university to be intelligent.

Eventually at 17 I went to work full time with him as with the two of us he could take on heavier moving of goods, it was not the best paying job in the world but it allowed me to help out at home and look after myself, I also got him to put some of my earnings to one side to pay for a bike.

Over the course of the next year I worked hard and Dave helped me learn to ride a bike and get my licence, so by the time I was turning 18 I had my first 125cc.

Now I had learn to understand and accept my feelings thanks to my childhood friend who was very supportive when I told him how I was starting to feel.

Now I just had to find out if Dave felt like I did, because I could not remember a time Dave had a steady relationship or if he even dated anyone.

But before all that happened my friend persuaded me to go to Soho in London with him and for him to show me the sights and give me some insight into his life, and the gay community in general.

I booked a week off and agreed to go stay with him in London at his flat that he shared with some other students, I will not lie and say I was fine, in fact I was very nervous.

Matt (not his real name) met me in at the train station at London Paddington on the Friday afternoon and we hopped on the tube over to his place and dropped of my bag, he introduced me to his flatmates who were all a part of the LGBT Students in London and had met through the group and agreed to rent a flat together. There was two women and another male, and this is what Matt wanted to show me, that you can have a life and be open and accepted.

I sat down as they chatted to me about their experiences and told me about their fears etc... It was towards the early evening when Matt said he was taking me on a tour of Soho and said to the others not to wait up.

Now getting through London's underground nearly made me lose the patients and manners I was taught to value, it was a nightmare.

We eventually arrived and Matt first took me to one of the bars he liked to drink at and we grabbed a pint and discussed what we were going to do that night.

We decided to go on a tour of the shops and then onto one of the clubs, it was at this point I realised just how relaxed I had become.

Now I will admit laughing my arse off as Matt took me to one of the sex toy shops, and to say I was shocked at what they offered was an understatement.

As I looked at the 'toys' Matt brought one of the staff over to meet me and I was introduced to Matt's partner, who had a big smile on his face and said he was pleased to meet me and that Matt had told him about me and why I was in London.

Now at this point we were escorted around the shop as I was given a rather graphic talk of how things worked and what fetishes there were out there.

They asked what I liked and I told them I did not have much experience and I honestly did not know what I truly liked.

Matt told me they were into bondage and asked if I had ever thought of trying that, I was very interested and was told I could try some of the toys out if I wanted.

I agreed and was led into the staff room as Matt selected some toys to show me, as his partner went back to work.

By this point it was nearly 8pm and Matt was quite excited to show me the ropes lol.

He came back in with samples of toys and some leather gear for me to try on, apparently they occasionally let people they knew or were known to them to try things out.

He assured me that the door to the room was locked and it was only him here and to enjoy the experience.

He started by showing me the gags, the restraints (cuffs and leather) he said ropes were good but if I wanted to stop then simply unlocking the buckles was easier than layers of rope.

He held up a leather harness, a leather collar and leather shorts that had locks and zips on them explaining what each does.

He then asked if I wanted to try them and I agreed cos after all this was one of if not my oldest friends and I trusted him.

So showing me the changing area I eagerly stripped down and pulled on the shorts doing up the belt as Matt said he would correct and tightened them. I fed my hardening cock through the whole were Matt said to put it, encasing it in a leather sheath.

Now by this point I was very turned on and it was showing through the shorts, which just got a smirk grin out of Matt as I stepped out just wearing the shorts.

He told me I looked good in them and that I had definitely had lost weight, at this point I was still a bit chubby but more like a rugby build.

He then began to tighten the buckles and belts pulling them in so that there was no room to move in them, he then showed me the numbered padlocks and asked I was ready at which I agreed.

Looking back I should have seen how eager Matt and his partner were to have me there (pun intended)

So there I was now locked into the shorts and really starting to enjoy this experience.

Matt then helped me into a leather chest harness that locked around my shoulders and crissed crossed my chest with it buckled tightly behind.

I asked Matt if he could take some pics of this and he eagerly pulled out a camera from his backpack (again I should have realised how prepared he was), after all if I did enjoy this then this was something I could hopefully show Dave.

Now came more leather as he attached leather cuffs to my wrists and ankles, no chains or locks yet :(

Matt asked how I felt and how comfortable I was, I told him this was fun and I was enjoying myself. My mind was racing with the possibilities and fantasies that were popping into my head.

Then Matt started showing me more of the toys, talking through the gags, the hood and the leather belts.

Matt then asked how I would like to be tied, as there was various ways he could achieve this, he showed me anchor points on the wall where I could be tied standing, a set where I would be tied kneeling and a chair with anchor points and a set of belts for my chest, legs and arms and neck.

He said we would only have time really to do one of them and looking at the them and the pro's and cons Matt said about them I chose the chair.

Not because of how much extra bondage was involved, I just didn't fancy standing or kneeling too long.

So Matt lead me to the chair and had me sit down as he locked my ankles to the legs of the chair and put the belts around my shins, holding them in place.

Now Matt said I had to put the leather hood on as it needed to be in place before the locking belt was put across my head.

So as I leant forward Matt began to slide the hood on, the smell of the leather was amazing as he adjusted it and zipped it into place, I asked how secure this was and he told me that once the cords were pulled tight and done up then it would not budge, and as he pulled and tightened it did indeed cocoon my face. then finally the collar on the hood was buckled up and I heard another lock clicking into place.

He asked how I felt and if I could breathe okay, he then told me about using my hand to indicate if I wanted to stop, to continue or to consent, he showed me how to symbolise each with my fingers as he said once the gag was in then I would not be able to talk.

I agreed and demonstrated them twice to Matts satisfaction, at this point I was feeling very euphoric and extremely happy.

Now Matt slipped what he called a posture collar around my neck which made my head sit up straight and allowed no room to turn or bend it, I realised as it was locked on that the hood could not be removed without taking this off.

Now Matt had me sit back and started to secure my chest and arms to the chair, the belts locking in place leaving me very secured and unable to move. My wrist cuffs were locked to the anchor points and finally Matt held up a penis gag, now at this point I had never touched another mans penis let alone had one in my mouth.

Matt joked that this was a way of keeping me quiet but happy, now at this point he push the head of it into my mouth as he then pushed it all the way in, it filled my mouth and I found it to be very nice. Matt threaded the belt and moved behind me to pull it tight, the gag at this point offered no flex and I could not move my tongue.

Finally the last belt was locked on, holding my head in place.

Matt smiled as he stepped back and took some photo's, he then said he was going to go and relax on the sofa for a bit and said he would check on me in 15mins.

I signed to consent with my fingers and watched him move out of sight.

I sat there and began to relax into this, determined to enjoy the feeling while I could. I started to count the minutes as best I could as the gag began to make my jaw ache.

Time seemed to move a lot slower as I started to struggle a bit, testing the strength of the straps, finding it all but impossible to move.

I realised that 15mins had passed a little while ago and began to get concerned, until I heard a small moan coming from the door.

Matt had let his partner in in to tell us the store was now closed, so by my estimate it was now gone 22:00hrs.

He looked to me and asked if was enjoying myself, and then chuckled as I could not really give him an answer.

He asked Matt how it was going and Matt said I took to it rather well and that I looked really good, his partner nodded and agreed with him on how I looked.

"so you got him to go full on with the bondage I see, even got him into those tight chastity shorts"

I tried to indicate that time was up, but they just smiled "So do you want to stop, were in no rush" said Matt as he licked his lips.

I realised as a big grin came on his partners face that they were enjoying themselves, I tried to ask what was going on and al I could get out was a moan to which they both laughed.

"Do you want to watch us, do you want to see what it's like?" at this my mind started to go crazy, they were going to fuck whilst I was bound, I was going to see cock for the first time.

I signed to consent, figuring that they were going to fuck anyway.

"Good, now so you understand we are going to be at this a while and if you do want to stop then indicate and we will let you out" said Matt as he began to strip in front of me, revealing his slim toned body and his rather large cock standing slightly to attention.

"So to explain a bit more we are both versatile meaning we like to be top and bottom to each other, we are also switches so both enjoy dom and sub roles" said Alan (partners name) as he began to kiss Matts neck as Matt began to strip him, revealing a more hairy body, toned and a very impressive cock.

"you at the moment are in a submissive role, one where you have to trust your parter/s" said Alan as Matt knelt down and taking Alan's cock he began to massage it and slowly tease it erect.

At this Alan went quite and I got to watch my first blowjob that was not a download, I was glued to the actions of it; the way Matt opened his mouth and slowly took it in as far as he could before he began to slide his mouth up and down as his hand took the rest to make sure every bit was acted upon.

time passed as I watch Matt work, the look on Alan's face as he stood there holding onto Matt's head as he moaned harder and harder.

I realised at this point that I was sucking on the gag, Alan had noticed the action and smiled.

"Do you want to try it?" said Alan as Matt slid his mouth off with a pop, I looked at him with surprised eyes and signed ok.

"No, let him watch you fuck me first" said Matt as he smiled up at Alan "He's not going anywhere for a while"

Alan laughed and reached down to Matt and stroked his face "get on the couch then"

Matt winked at me and walked over to the couch as Alan stood in front of me and brought his cock closer, it looked moist and the smell drove me crazy as he ran his hand over my thigh.

"I think you are going to enjoy your week with us" winked Alan as he walked over to Matt who was now bent over the couch so I could get a side on view of them fucking.

Alan was putting on the condom Matt had passed him, as Matt poured some lube onto his fingers. I saw him rubbing his arse and then his fingers started to slowly finger himself.

Alan watched on as Matt got himself nice and lubed, once Matt had pulled away Alan started to push his cock into the waiting hole.

They were going slow and Matt was moaning as Alan went deeper with each thrust until he was all the way in. He held himself there as Matt adjusted and got used to the feeling, as he explained what was going on.

Alan then began to slowly pump away as he slid in and out, building up a steady rhythm as Matt moaned; they were getting faster as Alan grabbed Matt's waist and sped up, pushing harder and harder as Matt screamed for him to fuck him.

I was at this point on cloud nine and I hadn't even gotten to play, I was so tightly bound that unless they choose to let me go there was nothing I could do.

With a primal grunt I could tell Alan had cummed, his orgasm driving him deeper into Matt.

"Fuck yes" shouted Alan as he pulled out of Matt.

Matt turned and grinned at me, "so did you enjoy our show" he asked a bit breathless.

All I could sign was ok, consent, ok.

"Do you think we should give him his first blow job?" asked Matt as he stood up

"Yes, I think he deserves it don't you?" said Alan as he winked at Matt

As matt moved to unlock my shorts Alan undid the gag and slid it out of my aching mouth.

"Please, please" was all I could say as Alan smiled at me

"Well as you look so good, but I think you should stay tied up for now" said Matt as he slipped my cock out of the leather sheath.

"Please, please just teach me" I begged not caring at this point as Matt began to kiss my aching cock.

I began to moan as Alan rubbed his fingers over his now condom free cock, the smell of his juices assaulting me as he pushed a finger into my mouth, not giving me a chance as he wiped the finger over my tongue

"Do you like that" he asked as he slid his finger out as Matt bit the tip of my cock, I moaned and whimpered at the same time

"I think we have a new playmate don't you Matt" said Alan as he watched Matt start to swallow my cock

At this point I will honestly confess that my mind gave out on me.

To this day I have never looked back, I spent the week with them and we ended up staying at Alan's so we could carry on my education.

When I left I vowed to return as soon as I could and I was hopeful of my chances with Dave after Matt revealed that he knew Dave and knew Dave was gay.

I got back to work and with new found confidence, I asked Dave as we were driving if he wanted me (hindsight don't ask anyone if they want you whilst driving it can be very distracting)

The smile on Dave's face told me everything and he asked why all of a sudden

I told him my tale and I will say I happily became his, after a rather emotional coming out to my family who to my surprise had expected this, not me with Dave but me being gay.

Me and Dave are still very happy together and have a now rather nice collection of Bondage toys and outfits. Me and Matt are still friends and even though him and Alan split up we all have remained close and have had some great nights with each other.

I felt the need to tell this about me as over time I have seen how hard it can be for others to take the plunge and be open about themselves.