I am afraid I have become a sex addict. I have trouble not thinking about finding some sex. I always have masterbated several times a day, when I would sleep with women they were always impressed on how well I fuck them. Lately I discovered the gay hook up site grinder and I have had sex with probably over 30 people in one month. I get a blow job from one guy and later be fucking some gay Guy's ass the same day. It got the point where I felt like an object. I deleted the app but I can't seem to stay away from it. Having uninhibited sex with men makes it harder. I can fuck and pound their asses hard and they love it. I know I need to stop but how can I. I only have emotional connections with women when it comes to sex, so I'm straight in the sense I only feel emotions for women. Sex with men though is so hot a woman can't match it. I've been lucky too and a lot of the men I've been with are hot as hell nice bodies and clean. I need help. Many older gay men I speak to tell me how they would have wished they walked away from the gay life when they were younger, now they can't.
This weekend a hot and I means hot older man called me over and I fucked him as his friend watched me fuck him.
I asked him to blow me to get me hard than I inserted my uncut cock up his ass missionary style. He loved it, I pounded that ass so good he needed a brake.
Then he laid on his stomach legs closed and ass up I mounted him and pounded his ass again good. They guy watching was saying wow you're a mean top, you fuck wild, I need to be more like you when I top.
This older man was really flexible. I had him on his back again and pounding away at his ass while kissing him having his legs on my shoulders. It was wild, sweat was dripping from my body atop of him. And as I kissed him I would also lick the sweat off of his neck. I love the sweaty hot sex we had.
Later we showered together and I gave him a massage and blew him a bit. I want to fuck this guy again.
The crazy thing is I had masterbated 3 times earlier that day and when I went home from fucking him I masterbated again.
Woke up the next day masterbated and set something up to have sex. I drove to the next town. It turned out to be a Chinese guy, who didn't know shit and was so ruff and foreseful. I already was unattractted to the guy I thought he might have Mexicans because of the brown nips and the only reason i would meet him but anyway I made an excuse and left. But before I could Chinese man was pulling my pants down, Jacking me off. It was bad I wanted to leave and got out of there as soon as I could. I also wanted to punch the little fucker he was so forceful.
Anyhow I left and parked in an empty parking lot and found another man to fuck. so I head over his house before going back to my town and fucked him hard, he loved it. We spoke about how he is closeted and very religious then I left. Later that night I had sonethitng else set up for sex but fell through.
So I ended up meeting someone else and jumped in the hot tub but i didn't have sex but probably would have if the guy tried something.

I really need help during the week before the weekend I also fucked another dude and another wanted me to fuck him also.

I have to stay off my phone or else I find sex.

God help me.