I am transgender mtf pre-op. I am waiting to hear from the doctor telling me that I am on the list for my corrective surgery to make me the beautiful girl that should have been my whole life.

It was hard feeling like a girl. I was always wearing my mom's or my 3 sisters clothes and shoes and make-up. My mom was not okay with me living as a girl. My sisters helped me become a girl. They let me watch them put on their make-up and ask questions.

In the summer mom worked 10 hours a day plus a half hour drive each way. My sisters would take me to put make-up on me to wear until just before mom comes home.

I would forget about the make-up and if someone knocked on the door I would get it. I had a few people tell me how pretty i look. It did feel great to see people while in make-up and sometimes in girl tops short shorts ppantyhose high heels. Maybe i just had a need to show that I really am a girl.