Transsexual Female / 18
I am transgender mtf pre-op and I am happy except for one thing, I can not get pregnant and have a baby. I have babysit since I was 14. I had a 6 month old baby when I was 15. At 15 I had 5 kids the 6 month old girl a 2 year old and two 3 year olds and a 4 year old. I changed the diapers and feed them. That is why I took and aced home Ec and no shop classes. My counselor said that I should take shop classes. I told her that I was a girl trapped inside a boys body.
Then she started looking at my classes and saw that I was in classes that were girls classes. I was forced to be in boys PE I told the gym teacher in private that I was transgender and I wear panties and Pantyhose everyday and I was afraid of the boys. He looked at me and said that is why you have a body like a girl. I said thank you for the compliment about my girl body.
I tried to cut off my testicals and I did major damage and I was 8 when I did that. My doctor said that she would give me testosterone and I said that I would flush them. She asked why I didn't want testosterone. I told her that I was not a boy I am a girl. She said that the damage I did was bad and the only thing that she could do was to go ahead and remove them. She told me that I would not grow like a boy I will stay small and not get muscles like boys. I was so happy I said that I wish that I had done this when I was 4. She told me it didn't matter because the male growth is around 13 - 16. So you will begin to develop like a girl when we start estrogen. I asked if I could start taking estrogen now. She said that I had to wait but not to worry because I was only going to get more feminine and I would not have facial hair and I will grow hair were my pussy should be.
I started taking estrogen in my teens and pretty soon my boobs started to develop and my hips grew and I had real curves. I was almost the smallest girl in school only 1 other girl was smaller than me. She is Judy and we became best girlfriends.
I had a girl try to get with the guy I was on a date with. I said, "Bitch leave my man alone". She began to get ready for a fight. I was never in a fight and I did all I knew, close my eyes and start slapping. She punched a lot and my date stopped it and I was crying. She really hurt me. I left her
alone but she kept on getting in my face. Then my girlfriend Susan saw her picking on my and I was already crying. Susan came up and beat that bitches ass. Then Susan told her that if she ever messed with Lisa, me, again she would beat her like a man beating her. The bitch would see me and turn and hurry away. Who knew that little Susan was so tough. She said that she had to learn to fight to stop her brother from hurting her. She said it took 2 weeks and she beat him. She was my bodyguard.
I was becoming very feminine from the estrogen and I developed with the other girls so I was right on track for my feminine development. I did not think that i could be anymore feminine than I was before the estrogen but I became what my doctor called hyper feminine. I was a real girlie girl and I was so happy being called a girl and I was Lisa. I am so glad that I tried to cut off my testicals which made it necessary to remove them when I was 8. I had asked to be the hone to clean the house and do dishes I did everything even laundry. I was only 7 when I was doing all the housework and I was loving it. I kept the house clean and did all my school work. When I 16 my mom surprised me with the best gift ever. She had put me on the list for my sex change operation. I still had the skin that held those worthless balls. The skin from
the testicals is soft and it makes the Virgina and it looks and feels like a girls vagina.
I am scheduled to get my surgery right after I graduate I get my tiny little penis made into a clitoris so I pee like a girl.
I was excited and happy when I was on the operating table the doctor asked if I was sure I wanted surgery. I said that becoming a girl is the only thing that I want and I did not have any thoughts of staying a boy and get beat up for my feminine ways. I don't try to act feminine it is all I know.
Being a small female can be scary when you are small and can't fight. I was a sophomore and a guy punched me and said be a man you freak. I cried because it hurt me. He did not know that my bodyguard saw it and was running to him. Susan beat him and said that she better not ever hear that he attacked another girl or I might cut off your worthless balls. We definitely don't need anymore like him. She made him tell me he was sorry and yes you are a girl. I was still crying and he hugged me and told me that he was so wrong. He held me until I stopped crying and then the strangest thing, he asked me to go on a date with him. I decided that he was sorry and really was ashamed. Then I said that I would love to go out with him. He was so sweet on our date. He took me to a nice restaurant and then a chick flick (lots of crying it was a good tear jerker. I thought that date was over but no he said that he wanted to take me dancing. I love to dance and we only sat out 1 song. He is a very good dancer and he made the date one of my top 2 dates.
I was very turned on by him, Steve, and I wanted him to ask me if I wanted to fool around. He was not asking so I put my hand softly on his cock and rubbed lightly. He was getting hard and he said that we can go to his house and only his sister was home. She told Steve that their parents called and would not be home until around 3. Steve said good we might get loud.
In his room I asked him if he would like a good girl to take his cock in my mouth. He said, "I was scared of asking you for sex". He said some girls have a rep for being easy but I did not have a rep so I was good girl because I never was a slut in school.
When Steve undressed me it was very sensual and sexy. Then he did a sexy strip tease and when his cock came out my eyes bugged out. He asked if everything was okay. I said it's better than okay. I have never seen a cock so big. I tried to take his cock all the way in my mouth but I was only able to get half of it in and I was gagging bad. I knew from experience that if I kept trying I would lose my gag reflex. I was able to take a 6 inch dick all the way. Steve's cock was at least 10 inches and thick. When he pushed his cock to my ass and it felt good. He said that this will hurt when he first goes in but then it is pure pleasure. He pushed in and I cried until it slipped in
He slowly pushed it in me until his big balls were on my ass. Then he pulled alost out and then he thrusted it hard I was moaning with pleasure. I was trying to be quiet but when you have a big hard cock and the guy knows how to use it to make women shake from having the best orgasm ever. I think that I might be getting feelings for the guy who punched me twice and I was confused.
I said, "Steve you made our date the best date I have been on. You take charge and I am able to go completely submissive and let him be in charge. I said that I would do anything for him except to be with a female (sick lesbian shit is not for this girl). I am a female now and Steve is asking me to be his girlfriend and he said that he never felt like this for anyone until our date. He said that when I was crying in the theater and he held me that he knew that we were meant to be together forever. I told him that I was also had feelings for him. It started at dinner when you asked what I wanted and you ordered the take charge attitude was very sexy. Then in the theater you held me every time I cried and you comforted me. Then dancing with you was so sexy. I believe that I am falling in love. I loved it so much because you were naturally in charge and you let me go totally submissive to his easy Dom feel. You were totally in charge but always respected me. I am so submissive that I will do a lot of things just to make you feel strong and manly Even if I would not do it normally. Putting you above everything else and always show you that I am your submissive and you are my star.
We dated for 6 months and he asked my daddy for his permission to marry his best daughter. Nobody does that anymore and it impressed daddy so much he said he is proud to call Steve he son. Not son in law just son. That means so much to me and daddy was the top dog but he let Steve have power also. And here I am the the submissive girl seeing my man with power given from daddy that means so much to see the men happy to be in control and sure of each decision. It is a great time for my submissive personality to go all in and give Steve more power. I am so deeply in love with Steve and I have never felt so strong about any man before.
I love him so much that I would love to crawl into his body to be closer than I have been with any man. I could not cheat on someone so special. He said that he loves that I am passionate enough to cry about it and I get to comfort you. He loves to comfort me and I love it so much. He completes me. Now I don't have the fears because he will protect me and provide for him.
I only have one regret that I can not have his babies. He should have 2 boys then 2 girls. The older brothers would protect the girls. But I can't give him that and I cry about it but I can't tell him why I am crying because I think that it would hurt him and I can't hurt him he is a wonderful man and boyfriend and soon I will Mrs Steve Gunther or Lisa Gunther. Having his name is very special to me. I told daddy that he will always be my friend and confidant. I said that I will see him above anyone else. Then he said that he has to step to the side and let Steve be your rock and love him and make him feel like a real man.
I have been shopping for my wedding gown my mom and sisters all went looking for my wedding gown. It is so much fun just us girls having a great time
We have it narrowed down to 4 gowns somehow I have to pick one but they are all so beautiful I can't decide.
Then my mom said that she has her mom's and grandma's wedding gown and I should fit them easily.
We went home and she showed me the wedding gown and I made up my mind I am going to wear my great grandma's wedding gown. It is old and so pretty and frilly I just love it so much. I only met her when I was 3 and I really don't remember her but wearing her gown is to remind me that she loved me. I told Steve that I picked my great grandma's wedding gown and it is so beautiful and frilly. I told him that I could not wait for him to see it on me. He asked to see it. I said Not until I my daddy walks me down the isle and gives me to you. Then you will see how beautiful it is and beautiful I feel in it. And it is my size 4 her shoes are also my size 6 in high heels. I can't wear guys shoes because they are way too wide for my little danty feet.
I am so relieved to know that I have my wedding gown and I know that Steve will love it And love me in it. I have never been happier and to think it all started with him hitting me and telling me to be a man and now we are going to be married and I can't wait to be his lovely bride and wife. My life is perfect and I am so happy.
I have all my girl parts and the first time that Steve made love with me in my brand new vagina it was magical. It feels great in my ass but in my pussy it was so much better than in my ass. I will still let him make love with me in my ass if he wants. The wonderful feeling of total submission and giving him the power. He is so wonderful I don't ever want him to leave my side, but I know he has to work. He is a heavy equipment operator what ever that is but he gets paid great.
I still feel like I am letting Steve down, but he has been seriously talking about adopting and I would be a mother and Steve will make the best father with his calm easy going but on top of everything he is so great. We start classes for the adoption so that they know that we will be good parents. They said that me being transgender is not bad for us. In fact if there are any transgender kids you are at the top for them so that they have someone that understands the transgender life and can understand what the kids are up against.
I am going to be a mommy I have dreamed of getting pregnant and giving birth since I was 10. My mom said that she did the same thing before she got pregnant. She said that when I get my kids the dreams should stop. I love the dream because I am pregnant and give birth and in my dream giving birth really hurts and I wake up looking for my baby until I fully wake and realize that I don't have kids and that makes me cry.
I cry more than any other girl that I know. My doctor said that some girls are prone to crying. It is believed that the hormones can make me sensitive and lead to crying. I told her that I have been a crier my whole life even before I destroyed my testicals. She said that crying is a way to release bad feelings and that is very helpful to keep you happy. She asked if I cry at movies and that I have bring a full box of tissues for all my crying. She asked if crying embarrassed me or upset me. I told no I just figured that I was a sensitive girl. My mom said that before I realized that I was trans I cried so much more and when I came out my parents knew before I figured it out.
The day i told my parents my mom and sisters and me went shopping. I was 4 and dressed like a boy but my mom always kept my hair in very feminine styles. At the store my mom and sisters were busy putting dresses on me. Then they found a cute pair of pants and would not let them put it on me. I only wanted dresses and skirts. I asked if I could get pantyhose to be like mom and my sisters. Mom said that for little girls like me they have tights and they are stronger than pantyhose and would be
allowed to wear them when I play with my dolls or in my play house. When I got home my mom helped me put on my tights and she taught me how to put them on. I had 5 pairs because mom knew that I would live in them because it made me feel like a big girl.
Steve is nervous about the wedding, he thinks he will mess it up. I told him that he was always cool calm and on top of everything. I told him that he is the most important thing in my world and he will be perfect. I have bad nerves because I have to be careful with great grandma's beautiful dress and I might trip and fall and ruin the most beautiful wedding gown ever saw and I looked in magazines and at in the bridal shop. I have seen over 500 wedding gowns and I have the best one anywhere. I told Steve that he would love it.
That's it until our wedding I will update you soon.
Then she started looking at my classes and saw that I was in classes that were girls classes. I was forced to be in boys PE I told the gym teacher in private that I was transgender and I wear panties and Pantyhose everyday and I was afraid of the boys. He looked at me and said that is why you have a body like a girl. I said thank you for the compliment about my girl body.
I tried to cut off my testicals and I did major damage and I was 8 when I did that. My doctor said that she would give me testosterone and I said that I would flush them. She asked why I didn't want testosterone. I told her that I was not a boy I am a girl. She said that the damage I did was bad and the only thing that she could do was to go ahead and remove them. She told me that I would not grow like a boy I will stay small and not get muscles like boys. I was so happy I said that I wish that I had done this when I was 4. She told me it didn't matter because the male growth is around 13 - 16. So you will begin to develop like a girl when we start estrogen. I asked if I could start taking estrogen now. She said that I had to wait but not to worry because I was only going to get more feminine and I would not have facial hair and I will grow hair were my pussy should be.
I started taking estrogen in my teens and pretty soon my boobs started to develop and my hips grew and I had real curves. I was almost the smallest girl in school only 1 other girl was smaller than me. She is Judy and we became best girlfriends.
I had a girl try to get with the guy I was on a date with. I said, "Bitch leave my man alone". She began to get ready for a fight. I was never in a fight and I did all I knew, close my eyes and start slapping. She punched a lot and my date stopped it and I was crying. She really hurt me. I left her
alone but she kept on getting in my face. Then my girlfriend Susan saw her picking on my and I was already crying. Susan came up and beat that bitches ass. Then Susan told her that if she ever messed with Lisa, me, again she would beat her like a man beating her. The bitch would see me and turn and hurry away. Who knew that little Susan was so tough. She said that she had to learn to fight to stop her brother from hurting her. She said it took 2 weeks and she beat him. She was my bodyguard.
I was becoming very feminine from the estrogen and I developed with the other girls so I was right on track for my feminine development. I did not think that i could be anymore feminine than I was before the estrogen but I became what my doctor called hyper feminine. I was a real girlie girl and I was so happy being called a girl and I was Lisa. I am so glad that I tried to cut off my testicals which made it necessary to remove them when I was 8. I had asked to be the hone to clean the house and do dishes I did everything even laundry. I was only 7 when I was doing all the housework and I was loving it. I kept the house clean and did all my school work. When I 16 my mom surprised me with the best gift ever. She had put me on the list for my sex change operation. I still had the skin that held those worthless balls. The skin from
the testicals is soft and it makes the Virgina and it looks and feels like a girls vagina.
I am scheduled to get my surgery right after I graduate I get my tiny little penis made into a clitoris so I pee like a girl.
I was excited and happy when I was on the operating table the doctor asked if I was sure I wanted surgery. I said that becoming a girl is the only thing that I want and I did not have any thoughts of staying a boy and get beat up for my feminine ways. I don't try to act feminine it is all I know.
Being a small female can be scary when you are small and can't fight. I was a sophomore and a guy punched me and said be a man you freak. I cried because it hurt me. He did not know that my bodyguard saw it and was running to him. Susan beat him and said that she better not ever hear that he attacked another girl or I might cut off your worthless balls. We definitely don't need anymore like him. She made him tell me he was sorry and yes you are a girl. I was still crying and he hugged me and told me that he was so wrong. He held me until I stopped crying and then the strangest thing, he asked me to go on a date with him. I decided that he was sorry and really was ashamed. Then I said that I would love to go out with him. He was so sweet on our date. He took me to a nice restaurant and then a chick flick (lots of crying it was a good tear jerker. I thought that date was over but no he said that he wanted to take me dancing. I love to dance and we only sat out 1 song. He is a very good dancer and he made the date one of my top 2 dates.
I was very turned on by him, Steve, and I wanted him to ask me if I wanted to fool around. He was not asking so I put my hand softly on his cock and rubbed lightly. He was getting hard and he said that we can go to his house and only his sister was home. She told Steve that their parents called and would not be home until around 3. Steve said good we might get loud.
In his room I asked him if he would like a good girl to take his cock in my mouth. He said, "I was scared of asking you for sex". He said some girls have a rep for being easy but I did not have a rep so I was good girl because I never was a slut in school.
When Steve undressed me it was very sensual and sexy. Then he did a sexy strip tease and when his cock came out my eyes bugged out. He asked if everything was okay. I said it's better than okay. I have never seen a cock so big. I tried to take his cock all the way in my mouth but I was only able to get half of it in and I was gagging bad. I knew from experience that if I kept trying I would lose my gag reflex. I was able to take a 6 inch dick all the way. Steve's cock was at least 10 inches and thick. When he pushed his cock to my ass and it felt good. He said that this will hurt when he first goes in but then it is pure pleasure. He pushed in and I cried until it slipped in
He slowly pushed it in me until his big balls were on my ass. Then he pulled alost out and then he thrusted it hard I was moaning with pleasure. I was trying to be quiet but when you have a big hard cock and the guy knows how to use it to make women shake from having the best orgasm ever. I think that I might be getting feelings for the guy who punched me twice and I was confused.
I said, "Steve you made our date the best date I have been on. You take charge and I am able to go completely submissive and let him be in charge. I said that I would do anything for him except to be with a female (sick lesbian shit is not for this girl). I am a female now and Steve is asking me to be his girlfriend and he said that he never felt like this for anyone until our date. He said that when I was crying in the theater and he held me that he knew that we were meant to be together forever. I told him that I was also had feelings for him. It started at dinner when you asked what I wanted and you ordered the take charge attitude was very sexy. Then in the theater you held me every time I cried and you comforted me. Then dancing with you was so sexy. I believe that I am falling in love. I loved it so much because you were naturally in charge and you let me go totally submissive to his easy Dom feel. You were totally in charge but always respected me. I am so submissive that I will do a lot of things just to make you feel strong and manly Even if I would not do it normally. Putting you above everything else and always show you that I am your submissive and you are my star.
We dated for 6 months and he asked my daddy for his permission to marry his best daughter. Nobody does that anymore and it impressed daddy so much he said he is proud to call Steve he son. Not son in law just son. That means so much to me and daddy was the top dog but he let Steve have power also. And here I am the the submissive girl seeing my man with power given from daddy that means so much to see the men happy to be in control and sure of each decision. It is a great time for my submissive personality to go all in and give Steve more power. I am so deeply in love with Steve and I have never felt so strong about any man before.
I love him so much that I would love to crawl into his body to be closer than I have been with any man. I could not cheat on someone so special. He said that he loves that I am passionate enough to cry about it and I get to comfort you. He loves to comfort me and I love it so much. He completes me. Now I don't have the fears because he will protect me and provide for him.
I only have one regret that I can not have his babies. He should have 2 boys then 2 girls. The older brothers would protect the girls. But I can't give him that and I cry about it but I can't tell him why I am crying because I think that it would hurt him and I can't hurt him he is a wonderful man and boyfriend and soon I will Mrs Steve Gunther or Lisa Gunther. Having his name is very special to me. I told daddy that he will always be my friend and confidant. I said that I will see him above anyone else. Then he said that he has to step to the side and let Steve be your rock and love him and make him feel like a real man.
I have been shopping for my wedding gown my mom and sisters all went looking for my wedding gown. It is so much fun just us girls having a great time
We have it narrowed down to 4 gowns somehow I have to pick one but they are all so beautiful I can't decide.
Then my mom said that she has her mom's and grandma's wedding gown and I should fit them easily.
We went home and she showed me the wedding gown and I made up my mind I am going to wear my great grandma's wedding gown. It is old and so pretty and frilly I just love it so much. I only met her when I was 3 and I really don't remember her but wearing her gown is to remind me that she loved me. I told Steve that I picked my great grandma's wedding gown and it is so beautiful and frilly. I told him that I could not wait for him to see it on me. He asked to see it. I said Not until I my daddy walks me down the isle and gives me to you. Then you will see how beautiful it is and beautiful I feel in it. And it is my size 4 her shoes are also my size 6 in high heels. I can't wear guys shoes because they are way too wide for my little danty feet.
I am so relieved to know that I have my wedding gown and I know that Steve will love it And love me in it. I have never been happier and to think it all started with him hitting me and telling me to be a man and now we are going to be married and I can't wait to be his lovely bride and wife. My life is perfect and I am so happy.
I have all my girl parts and the first time that Steve made love with me in my brand new vagina it was magical. It feels great in my ass but in my pussy it was so much better than in my ass. I will still let him make love with me in my ass if he wants. The wonderful feeling of total submission and giving him the power. He is so wonderful I don't ever want him to leave my side, but I know he has to work. He is a heavy equipment operator what ever that is but he gets paid great.
I still feel like I am letting Steve down, but he has been seriously talking about adopting and I would be a mother and Steve will make the best father with his calm easy going but on top of everything he is so great. We start classes for the adoption so that they know that we will be good parents. They said that me being transgender is not bad for us. In fact if there are any transgender kids you are at the top for them so that they have someone that understands the transgender life and can understand what the kids are up against.
I am going to be a mommy I have dreamed of getting pregnant and giving birth since I was 10. My mom said that she did the same thing before she got pregnant. She said that when I get my kids the dreams should stop. I love the dream because I am pregnant and give birth and in my dream giving birth really hurts and I wake up looking for my baby until I fully wake and realize that I don't have kids and that makes me cry.
I cry more than any other girl that I know. My doctor said that some girls are prone to crying. It is believed that the hormones can make me sensitive and lead to crying. I told her that I have been a crier my whole life even before I destroyed my testicals. She said that crying is a way to release bad feelings and that is very helpful to keep you happy. She asked if I cry at movies and that I have bring a full box of tissues for all my crying. She asked if crying embarrassed me or upset me. I told no I just figured that I was a sensitive girl. My mom said that before I realized that I was trans I cried so much more and when I came out my parents knew before I figured it out.
The day i told my parents my mom and sisters and me went shopping. I was 4 and dressed like a boy but my mom always kept my hair in very feminine styles. At the store my mom and sisters were busy putting dresses on me. Then they found a cute pair of pants and would not let them put it on me. I only wanted dresses and skirts. I asked if I could get pantyhose to be like mom and my sisters. Mom said that for little girls like me they have tights and they are stronger than pantyhose and would be
allowed to wear them when I play with my dolls or in my play house. When I got home my mom helped me put on my tights and she taught me how to put them on. I had 5 pairs because mom knew that I would live in them because it made me feel like a big girl.
Steve is nervous about the wedding, he thinks he will mess it up. I told him that he was always cool calm and on top of everything. I told him that he is the most important thing in my world and he will be perfect. I have bad nerves because I have to be careful with great grandma's beautiful dress and I might trip and fall and ruin the most beautiful wedding gown ever saw and I looked in magazines and at in the bridal shop. I have seen over 500 wedding gowns and I have the best one anywhere. I told Steve that he would love it.
That's it until our wedding I will update you soon.
