I was cast adrift when I was a teenager. My parents divorced and I lived with my mom. Things were hard and in order to have spending money I took a job at the mall in the food court. The first night after we closed I was told to take the trash out to the dumpster. At the dumpster I was grabbed from behind and lifted and carried back into the mall service corridor and into a door and taken inside. It was dark and his hands was in my shirt and then he shoved it down my pants. I thought my life was supposed to flash before my eyes but it was just dark and he was breathing hard and he pushed my pants down until my bare bottom was exposed and his penis slipped between my legs and he fucked me.

He left and I got dressed and went back out into the hall and went back towards the store but all the lights were out, so I went out back again where the dumpster was and walked around the mall to where my mom picked me up. She asked me why my hair was a mess and I told her I had to take the trash out and the wind messed it up. At home I spent a while cleaning myself up and I took a bath and soaked for a long time and washed myself out.

I went to work the next day but I couldn't figure out who it was so I just did my job. I took the trash out many times. I used my first pay check to buy panties, I wanted to be wearing nice panties if it happened again. But it did not happen and I had to work that stupid job.

At 19 I met this guy and we started going together and one night he was pushing me to have sex, he asked me if I had ever had sex and I said no.