As a kid, I had my first gay experience at about 11. I had a friend who was over my house and I don't even know how it started but we played this game where one of us would hide and then when the other found him, he would lie face down while the other one rubbed his dick against his ass. This was done fully clothed and then eventually it turned into bare Dick on bare ass.

We only did it for a little bit to stroke our cocks against each other. That stopped very quickly and then we slowly stopped being friends.

I was only with girls after that until in my 20s when I started to think of how hot it would be to go to a gay bar, get picked up by a really good looking guy and then blow him in the parking lot. Thinking about taking a hot load in my mouth was such a turn on.

That never happened but I started to wear my girlfriends clothes and fantasize about stripping for a guy and then having him fuck me.

During that time there was one night when I emailed What I thought was going to be a tranny from an ad to come to my apartment. I loved looking at pics of really feminine ones with big fake tits.

This one came over but was really just a cross-dresser. He wouldn't blow me but jerked me off. I asked to suck his cock but he couldn't even get hard so the whole experience wasn't good.

I tried putting up a Craig's list ad to blow someone but never went through with it. Probably because what I wanted was a really good looking muscular gay guy and wasn't guaranteed I could find one.

Have been with women only since then but occasionally suck on pickles like it was a dick and sometimes I jerk off with something in my mouth.

Can anyone related to this?