I have been crossdressing since I was 12. After my hormones, I am very passable and live as a girl. I was with a man last night and I made it plain and clear that until I get to know someone I only with use my hand and my mouth, but not take cum in my mouth. After I get to know someone well enough and trust them I will be their bottom and also will fully swallow. This man was in his early 40's, we met at a club, and he took me to his hotel room. I stripped out of a very sexy red dress, and was in my matching red lace undies with garter and nude colored stockings. I was using my hand on him with some lotion, and wiped it off and started to use my mouth on his very thick and pretty long cock. It was impressive, mine is really tiny, only about 3 inches long and the thickness of my forefinger, but his was about 2 and 1/2 inches thick and was easily 8 to 9 inches long. I really wanted to show him my oral skills, he was being very romantic and treating me like a girl, which is what I like. I was taking him as far down my throat as I could - about 3 inches or so, it was so thick - then he pushed my head down and forced it all the way down my throat. He let me up and I caught my breath and he pushed me back down, all the while with his other hand groping my tiny estrogen enhanced boobies, and putting his hand down my pants. I told him I didn't like to use my front and he moved to my bottom. I knew I shouldn't but he asked me to lie on the bed on my back and he pulled my head to the edge of the bed then started fucking my throat like it was a pussy or my ass. I couldn't take it, It really hurt, my throat was raw and sore, and I was not getting breath like I needed. He ended by cumming deep in my throat cutting off all the air. I pulled up and started coughing and spitting. Then he grabbed me by the head and pushed my face into every pool and drop of his cum and made me lick it all up and swallow. I tried to get up and leave and he pulled me back down on the bed and called me names while hitting me in the face with his fist.

He made me start dancing to some music he put on, and I had to do a striptease for him, taking off my panties and my bra. He said that is what he makes his wife do for him but she doesn't take it in the mouth like I did. When he said that she doesn't take it in her ass either, I knew what was going to happen. I begged, he hit me again, I cried, he hit me again, then pushed me on the bed and squirted lotion on me and him and rammed that monster all the way inside me. I am no virgin, I was, thank heaven, broken in by a large cocked man when I was 13, so at least I didn't bleed, but he forced his way into me and it took him over 20 minutes of fucking before he would cum. Every few seconds he would call me names, or call me by cutsie little names, honey, sweetheart, etc. mixed with the C word, B word and even faggot. He shot his load and I tried to get up and pull my clothes together and he wouldn't let me. He kept me there all night took me in my gaping bottom 3 more times and in the morning told me to lay down and put my head over the edge of the bed again. I did it, and so did he.

He finally let me leave at 9:30am after he made me jack off my little cock and shoot what tiny load I could on his cock and lick it all up.