Straight Male / 48
what I am about to share is a confession that doesn't really fit in any other category, it is not really about me but has affected me in several ways. I have had this bottled up inside me for over a year now and during all this time the situation has remained the same and neither of us is aware that anything between each other has changed and by all appearances we are still the same with the only differences being, I know what she has been doing for over a year and she does not know that I know about every thing she has done since the first time.
I learned a little over a year ago that my wife was having an affair with another man, but what I actually learned was that this was more than an affair as you will see. I sometimes have to travel with my job and am sometimes gone a few days, never more than a week, and I always seem to have to get the late flight back home and we live about an hour from the airport so I normally just put my truck in long term parking to avoid putting the burden on my wife of having to transport me back and forth to the airport.
my wife does not work, she stays at home, she has a few minor health issues from a troublesome past in her early life that have left her with scars from surgeries and the taking of regular medication daily. one of the medicines she takes is a sleeping medicine and when she takes it she is out for a solid 8 or 10 hours, I mean a tornado could literally take the house from around her and she would sleep right through it.
I used to tease her in our early marriage that a thief could come in here at night when she is sleeping and rob us blind and she would not be the wiser until the next day when she woke up, I learned just how hard she slept early on as in the early stages of our marriage when I would arrive home very late I would always tip toe and be extremely quiet when I came in and not turn on lights etc... but I soon learned that it did not matter what I did, she would not be disturbed by me moving around the house and making noise.
we have been married about 12 years now and like I said, I discovered a little over a year ago that my wife was having an affair, but what I have to tell you is that it is not just your normal affair. I came home really late one night after catching the last flight to my city and arrived home around 2am and came in as usual, put my bags down and went and looked in on her and she was sound asleep in our bed. I went thru the den to go to the kitchen to fix me something to drink when I noticed her laptop was on the dining room table, which was not out of the ordinary as she was a u tube and an internet junkie and her laptop was always sitting there, but what was different is that it was still on and there was something on the screen that appeared to be an email or a document of some kind and as I got closer I recognized that it was google mail that was open but I did not know the senders name or the name of the recipient which I soon found out was my wife..
there was an email open and the very first two words in all capital letters were, HEY SEXY!!!
I sat down in the chair in front of her laptop and began to read this email that some other man had sent my wife to what evidently was a secret email account that she had as I had never seen or heard of it but according to the username I knew it was her.
after the HEY SEXY the man who typed this email said this to my wife:
what an incredible turn on it was to fuck you in the back of my suv in the parking lot of that restaurant and knowing that anyone could have seen us and seen your legs in the air while we were fucking!
you are such a fucking incredible sexually hot woman, you make my cock throb with excitement whenever I know we are going to meet somewhere to fuck, and the way you suck my cock is incredible, the way you just take my entire cock in your mouth and your incredible lips that feel like velvet, no one has ever sucked my cock like you do!
the way you whimpered and moaned when I shoved my cock in your sweet soaking wet pussy tonight as your legs were spread so wide and your feet against the roof of my suv, I was so incredibly turned on and when you said please fuck my married pussy baby, please fuck me like I need to be fucked, please make me cum like only you can baby! I could not help myself but to fuck you like I did, with all my might, listening to you moan and cry out in my ear when you were cumming over and over again as I felt you raise your hips up to meet my hard thrusts, feeling your legs wrap around my back as you locked your feet and put your arms around my neck, begging me to fuck you harder and fill your married pussy up with my cum and when you told me that your married pussy was my pussy and I could fuck it any way I wanted too and anytime I wanted too, I lost it baby, my cock exploded and you cried out oh fuck yes fill me up with your hot cum as I pushed my cock deep in your pussy as it exploded feeling it pulse and empty my balls deep in your sweet pussy, I was sweating profusely and it was dripping all over you as I raised up and you pushed up on my chest and slid down underneath me and took my cock in your mouth and began to lick and suck it, licking it clean of all our juices.
when I leaned over on my side I could see all the cum all over your pussy and your thighs as you spread your legs to put your panties back on, and as you continued to get dressed I dressed and then I walked you to your car and you got in and rolled down the window and as I leaned over you looked at me and said thank you once again for another awesome fuck and you kissed me and I could taste our juices as you drove away waving your hand as you went across the parking lot.
you are the most incredible sexually exciting woman I have ever known and I can not wait to fuck you again, have a good night and rest well..
xxxxxx
that is what the email said word for word, I later printed it out because I have read it about ten thousand times!
after I finished reading it that first time, I was in amazement and to be blunt honest I was actually extremely turned on and sitting there with a very hard cock. I re read it again, and again, not sure I could believe what I had just read, my wife and I had never fucked that way, neither in a vehicle or with such an intensity that he described it to have been, to know that my wife, my conservative wife whom with we mostly only "made love" according to her and she was happy with our sex life according to her, the most exciting thing she had ever done for me was to let me pull her panties down and fuck her bent over the kitchen counter one time, our sex was always in our bed and most always missionary style and that was it, she would suck my cock sometimes for a minute or two, but never once had she taken my entire cock in her mouth and I am only average in that department.
I felt so hurt and angry and jealous all at the same time! I noticed I was shaking all over, but I could not stop thinking about how turned on I was, I mean I could not stop thinking about my wife on her back with her legs spread wide and feet in the air as some man was evidently pounding on her pussy with all his might (according to what he described).
i sat there and i closed that email and her inbox was full of emails from the same guy, i started clicking them open one by one and reading them and again i could not believe what i read, i read all about all the different places and hotel rooms and over by the lake outdoors at night and the list went on and on of places i read about where they had fucked, a lot of the emails were just from him but a few of them had where she had replied to him so i read what her responses were to what he had said each time. after reading probably 40 or 50 emails, i read all about how much my wife loved his 9 inch cock and that he was the biggest she had ever even seen much less been fucked by, i read how she told him that her husbands cock was tiny compared to him, i read about how she thought that they had incredible fuck chemistry and how he understood that she was a married woman and that she needed to be able to let go and let her inner slut out and be fucked like a ragdoll which is something she could never share with her husband, i then went to her sent box and there were a zillion emails that she had sent him, mostly each one was after each time they would meet and when she got back home she would tell him how her panties were soaked with his cum and how she had never had that much cum in her pussy before but she loved it, she told him how she would lay in bed in her panties once she got home and before going to sleep she would stick her hand in her panties and play with her pussy and his cum and lick his cum off of her fingers and make herself cum just one more time before she would go to sleep with his cum still inside her and how the next day his cum would still be leaking out of her.
i had to stop and go to bed at that point, i wondered if she was in there asleep with his cum in her pussy at that moment i was in the dining room reading about it. i took a piece of paper out of my wallet and wrote down her fake email address and i closed out her email and turned off her computer and went and got ready for bed and got in bed beside her and my mind would not shut off, she was in dreamland and never woke up when i came to bed so i laid there and was thinking about all i had read and my cock got very hard again and i reached down and started to gently stroke my cock while imagining the things i had listened to my wife tell this man and him tell her and about how they fucked and it only took a few minutes of this and i was blowing a load in my boxers, i was never more turned on in my life and decided that i was not going to let on like i knew anything and i would figure out her password for her email and keep up with her escapades that way.
the next morning she greeted me with a kiss and a good morning and all i could think about was that i was kissing her after she had been sucking on his cock and eating his cum but i kissed her back and said good morning.
i tried to put it all out of my head but could not and once at work in the privacy of my office i went to google mail and put in her username and got her password right the very first try, it was the same as her other one, not too smart on her part but i figured as much..
i printed a copy of every single email that he sent to her and that she sent to him and i put them in a folder in the bottom of a desk drawer with some business paperwork. when i had time i would check her email to see if there was any new mail and occasionally there was and i discovered that when i told her i was going to be going somewhere for a few days, there would suddenly be an email telling him i was going out of town again, there were a lot of those in my personal file.. they would make plans to meet and would finalize them as soon as my plane was in the air. depending on the time of year, depended on where they would fuck, winter time was most always a hotel in a neighboring city, summertime was a toss up, it might be down by the lake, on a dead end road somewhere leaning against his suv, or over hood of her car, sometimes she went to his place, they had what they called "our place" that i have yet to figure out where that is but they went there a lot.
one day i went through the emails and i counted that in the 11 months that they had been seeing each other they had fucked 46 times, 46 times and her and i had not fucked 46 times in our entire marriage!
i read in their early emails how she told him that her husband was a wonderful provider and she loved me very much and had no intentions of ever leaving me, i was her soul mate, but what she needed most i could not give her or do for her and i could not satisfy her sexual needs and desires but she could never tell me that for fear of loosing the love of her life. reading that one paragraph confused me so much but yet at the same time i began to understand what she meant. she respected me for providing for her and understanding her situation that life had dealt her, she respected me so much and loved me so much for loving her enough to provide her with a nice home and never having to worry about money or a car to drive or how i treated her like a queen and adored her. that's every womans dream right? but as much as i do for her the one and only thing according to her that i can not do is satisfy her sexual cravings and desires for a big cock and a man that will bring out her inner whore and fuck her in that same manner letting her be that whore in bed. i read where she told him that she could never be that way with her husband for fear of him leaving her because of her desires and not being the prim and proper wife he thought he married.
after reading that email, i knew she was telling this man the truth, i understood why she needed this man, i knew she did not have or ever would have any emotional connection of love with this man, she was using him as an object, he was 32 years old to my 48 years old, younger, stronger, nice big thick cock that stays nice and hard to fuck her and satisfy her desires with, basically just a tool for her to use when she needs it..
our marriage has not changed, i mean i know what i know and as far as i know she has no idea that i know. she takes every effort to go the extra mile to make sure that her affair with him will never in any way interfere with our marriage, she treats me no differently, but i on the other had have been living with the burden of knowing this for over a year now, the burden of knowing that my wife that i love is sharing her most intimate desires with another man, she is letting another man fuck what only i should be fucking, i sometimes can not stay hard while "making love" to her and she sensed this one night and asked if i was ok and i brushed it off saying that i was just extremely tired and she understood.. however when alone i can think about it and get rock hard and masturbate and cum so hard thinking about my sweet wife on her back with her legs in the air or bent over doggie style, which i found out by reading is her favorite position with him because his big cock goes so deep in her pussy and makes her cum like she did not know was possible and even makes her pussy squirt sometimes. i sometimes feel that i am married to a secret porn star but she is another mans porn star.
now lately in the last couple of months i have noticed that the sex between her and i has become almost non existent and it has now been three weeks since i even saw her naked. i have not even ate her pussy in over 6 months as she has steered me away from doing that, maybe she is thinking i might notice something, but she used to love for me to eat her out. i jerk off all the time now, at least two or three times a day and it is always and i mean always about another man fucking my wife, never about me and another woman or anything else, always her getting fucked, i discovered cuckoldry porn on the internet totally by accident trying to research what was happening to me and low and behold i figured that i am a cuckold, makes me wonder if she knows about this, but what i have read about is that there are some many variations of cuckoldry that i guess this could be one where the wife does it intentionally but keeps it hidden from her husband and slowly weans him away from her so he wont be begging her for sex all the time and she can have her boy toy to fuck her brains out and rock her world and get exactly what she wants, a husband that provides everything for her and his reward is that she is no longer intimate with him in any way and some other man is fucking her like a whore and making her scream and beg for his cock and she does not have a husband nagging her about sex all the time...
what a confusing mess this has seemed to turn out to be and i am not sure even which way to go or turn or not even sure that i would go any certain way for fear of people finding out about the lifestyle we have sort of ended up in, especially if this is something she planned from the beginning.. maybe she is trying to drive me to have sex with another woman to catch me and make me the bad guy in all of this???
for now i have just accepted it all and changed nothing, i do what she wants, i don't bug her about the sex, i just jerk myself off, i work my job, i ended up throwing all those emails away and i no longer read their emails to each other and i know it is happening and i just try not to think about it, there was one day a while back that i did see a pair of her panties, a little black thong, on top of the hamper in our bedroom and i noticed the crotch was all wet and creamy with what was obviously globs of his cum, i just acted like i never saw them there as i felt they were put there for me to see because she had never left any panties on top of the hamper before, especially with the crotch showing.. later that day they were gone.. maybe she is wanting me to find out, i have no idea, for right now i just know that for almost 13 months another man has been fucking my wife and has done so probably 80 times by now and filled her pussy up with his cum every time and i have not cum in her pussy in over 6 months now..
that's my confession and honestly i don't feel better about confessing it, now i feel worse.
anyway life goes on i guess and i guess that her and i will never have sex again, she no longer needs me or actually never needed me in the first place to satisfy her sexually that part was all a lie i guess, she may say she loves me but i feel she has a very strange way of showing it...
I learned a little over a year ago that my wife was having an affair with another man, but what I actually learned was that this was more than an affair as you will see. I sometimes have to travel with my job and am sometimes gone a few days, never more than a week, and I always seem to have to get the late flight back home and we live about an hour from the airport so I normally just put my truck in long term parking to avoid putting the burden on my wife of having to transport me back and forth to the airport.
my wife does not work, she stays at home, she has a few minor health issues from a troublesome past in her early life that have left her with scars from surgeries and the taking of regular medication daily. one of the medicines she takes is a sleeping medicine and when she takes it she is out for a solid 8 or 10 hours, I mean a tornado could literally take the house from around her and she would sleep right through it.
I used to tease her in our early marriage that a thief could come in here at night when she is sleeping and rob us blind and she would not be the wiser until the next day when she woke up, I learned just how hard she slept early on as in the early stages of our marriage when I would arrive home very late I would always tip toe and be extremely quiet when I came in and not turn on lights etc... but I soon learned that it did not matter what I did, she would not be disturbed by me moving around the house and making noise.
we have been married about 12 years now and like I said, I discovered a little over a year ago that my wife was having an affair, but what I have to tell you is that it is not just your normal affair. I came home really late one night after catching the last flight to my city and arrived home around 2am and came in as usual, put my bags down and went and looked in on her and she was sound asleep in our bed. I went thru the den to go to the kitchen to fix me something to drink when I noticed her laptop was on the dining room table, which was not out of the ordinary as she was a u tube and an internet junkie and her laptop was always sitting there, but what was different is that it was still on and there was something on the screen that appeared to be an email or a document of some kind and as I got closer I recognized that it was google mail that was open but I did not know the senders name or the name of the recipient which I soon found out was my wife..
there was an email open and the very first two words in all capital letters were, HEY SEXY!!!
I sat down in the chair in front of her laptop and began to read this email that some other man had sent my wife to what evidently was a secret email account that she had as I had never seen or heard of it but according to the username I knew it was her.
after the HEY SEXY the man who typed this email said this to my wife:
what an incredible turn on it was to fuck you in the back of my suv in the parking lot of that restaurant and knowing that anyone could have seen us and seen your legs in the air while we were fucking!
you are such a fucking incredible sexually hot woman, you make my cock throb with excitement whenever I know we are going to meet somewhere to fuck, and the way you suck my cock is incredible, the way you just take my entire cock in your mouth and your incredible lips that feel like velvet, no one has ever sucked my cock like you do!
the way you whimpered and moaned when I shoved my cock in your sweet soaking wet pussy tonight as your legs were spread so wide and your feet against the roof of my suv, I was so incredibly turned on and when you said please fuck my married pussy baby, please fuck me like I need to be fucked, please make me cum like only you can baby! I could not help myself but to fuck you like I did, with all my might, listening to you moan and cry out in my ear when you were cumming over and over again as I felt you raise your hips up to meet my hard thrusts, feeling your legs wrap around my back as you locked your feet and put your arms around my neck, begging me to fuck you harder and fill your married pussy up with my cum and when you told me that your married pussy was my pussy and I could fuck it any way I wanted too and anytime I wanted too, I lost it baby, my cock exploded and you cried out oh fuck yes fill me up with your hot cum as I pushed my cock deep in your pussy as it exploded feeling it pulse and empty my balls deep in your sweet pussy, I was sweating profusely and it was dripping all over you as I raised up and you pushed up on my chest and slid down underneath me and took my cock in your mouth and began to lick and suck it, licking it clean of all our juices.
when I leaned over on my side I could see all the cum all over your pussy and your thighs as you spread your legs to put your panties back on, and as you continued to get dressed I dressed and then I walked you to your car and you got in and rolled down the window and as I leaned over you looked at me and said thank you once again for another awesome fuck and you kissed me and I could taste our juices as you drove away waving your hand as you went across the parking lot.
you are the most incredible sexually exciting woman I have ever known and I can not wait to fuck you again, have a good night and rest well..
xxxxxx
that is what the email said word for word, I later printed it out because I have read it about ten thousand times!
after I finished reading it that first time, I was in amazement and to be blunt honest I was actually extremely turned on and sitting there with a very hard cock. I re read it again, and again, not sure I could believe what I had just read, my wife and I had never fucked that way, neither in a vehicle or with such an intensity that he described it to have been, to know that my wife, my conservative wife whom with we mostly only "made love" according to her and she was happy with our sex life according to her, the most exciting thing she had ever done for me was to let me pull her panties down and fuck her bent over the kitchen counter one time, our sex was always in our bed and most always missionary style and that was it, she would suck my cock sometimes for a minute or two, but never once had she taken my entire cock in her mouth and I am only average in that department.
I felt so hurt and angry and jealous all at the same time! I noticed I was shaking all over, but I could not stop thinking about how turned on I was, I mean I could not stop thinking about my wife on her back with her legs spread wide and feet in the air as some man was evidently pounding on her pussy with all his might (according to what he described).
i sat there and i closed that email and her inbox was full of emails from the same guy, i started clicking them open one by one and reading them and again i could not believe what i read, i read all about all the different places and hotel rooms and over by the lake outdoors at night and the list went on and on of places i read about where they had fucked, a lot of the emails were just from him but a few of them had where she had replied to him so i read what her responses were to what he had said each time. after reading probably 40 or 50 emails, i read all about how much my wife loved his 9 inch cock and that he was the biggest she had ever even seen much less been fucked by, i read how she told him that her husbands cock was tiny compared to him, i read about how she thought that they had incredible fuck chemistry and how he understood that she was a married woman and that she needed to be able to let go and let her inner slut out and be fucked like a ragdoll which is something she could never share with her husband, i then went to her sent box and there were a zillion emails that she had sent him, mostly each one was after each time they would meet and when she got back home she would tell him how her panties were soaked with his cum and how she had never had that much cum in her pussy before but she loved it, she told him how she would lay in bed in her panties once she got home and before going to sleep she would stick her hand in her panties and play with her pussy and his cum and lick his cum off of her fingers and make herself cum just one more time before she would go to sleep with his cum still inside her and how the next day his cum would still be leaking out of her.
i had to stop and go to bed at that point, i wondered if she was in there asleep with his cum in her pussy at that moment i was in the dining room reading about it. i took a piece of paper out of my wallet and wrote down her fake email address and i closed out her email and turned off her computer and went and got ready for bed and got in bed beside her and my mind would not shut off, she was in dreamland and never woke up when i came to bed so i laid there and was thinking about all i had read and my cock got very hard again and i reached down and started to gently stroke my cock while imagining the things i had listened to my wife tell this man and him tell her and about how they fucked and it only took a few minutes of this and i was blowing a load in my boxers, i was never more turned on in my life and decided that i was not going to let on like i knew anything and i would figure out her password for her email and keep up with her escapades that way.
the next morning she greeted me with a kiss and a good morning and all i could think about was that i was kissing her after she had been sucking on his cock and eating his cum but i kissed her back and said good morning.
i tried to put it all out of my head but could not and once at work in the privacy of my office i went to google mail and put in her username and got her password right the very first try, it was the same as her other one, not too smart on her part but i figured as much..
i printed a copy of every single email that he sent to her and that she sent to him and i put them in a folder in the bottom of a desk drawer with some business paperwork. when i had time i would check her email to see if there was any new mail and occasionally there was and i discovered that when i told her i was going to be going somewhere for a few days, there would suddenly be an email telling him i was going out of town again, there were a lot of those in my personal file.. they would make plans to meet and would finalize them as soon as my plane was in the air. depending on the time of year, depended on where they would fuck, winter time was most always a hotel in a neighboring city, summertime was a toss up, it might be down by the lake, on a dead end road somewhere leaning against his suv, or over hood of her car, sometimes she went to his place, they had what they called "our place" that i have yet to figure out where that is but they went there a lot.
one day i went through the emails and i counted that in the 11 months that they had been seeing each other they had fucked 46 times, 46 times and her and i had not fucked 46 times in our entire marriage!
i read in their early emails how she told him that her husband was a wonderful provider and she loved me very much and had no intentions of ever leaving me, i was her soul mate, but what she needed most i could not give her or do for her and i could not satisfy her sexual needs and desires but she could never tell me that for fear of loosing the love of her life. reading that one paragraph confused me so much but yet at the same time i began to understand what she meant. she respected me for providing for her and understanding her situation that life had dealt her, she respected me so much and loved me so much for loving her enough to provide her with a nice home and never having to worry about money or a car to drive or how i treated her like a queen and adored her. that's every womans dream right? but as much as i do for her the one and only thing according to her that i can not do is satisfy her sexual cravings and desires for a big cock and a man that will bring out her inner whore and fuck her in that same manner letting her be that whore in bed. i read where she told him that she could never be that way with her husband for fear of him leaving her because of her desires and not being the prim and proper wife he thought he married.
after reading that email, i knew she was telling this man the truth, i understood why she needed this man, i knew she did not have or ever would have any emotional connection of love with this man, she was using him as an object, he was 32 years old to my 48 years old, younger, stronger, nice big thick cock that stays nice and hard to fuck her and satisfy her desires with, basically just a tool for her to use when she needs it..
our marriage has not changed, i mean i know what i know and as far as i know she has no idea that i know. she takes every effort to go the extra mile to make sure that her affair with him will never in any way interfere with our marriage, she treats me no differently, but i on the other had have been living with the burden of knowing this for over a year now, the burden of knowing that my wife that i love is sharing her most intimate desires with another man, she is letting another man fuck what only i should be fucking, i sometimes can not stay hard while "making love" to her and she sensed this one night and asked if i was ok and i brushed it off saying that i was just extremely tired and she understood.. however when alone i can think about it and get rock hard and masturbate and cum so hard thinking about my sweet wife on her back with her legs in the air or bent over doggie style, which i found out by reading is her favorite position with him because his big cock goes so deep in her pussy and makes her cum like she did not know was possible and even makes her pussy squirt sometimes. i sometimes feel that i am married to a secret porn star but she is another mans porn star.
now lately in the last couple of months i have noticed that the sex between her and i has become almost non existent and it has now been three weeks since i even saw her naked. i have not even ate her pussy in over 6 months as she has steered me away from doing that, maybe she is thinking i might notice something, but she used to love for me to eat her out. i jerk off all the time now, at least two or three times a day and it is always and i mean always about another man fucking my wife, never about me and another woman or anything else, always her getting fucked, i discovered cuckoldry porn on the internet totally by accident trying to research what was happening to me and low and behold i figured that i am a cuckold, makes me wonder if she knows about this, but what i have read about is that there are some many variations of cuckoldry that i guess this could be one where the wife does it intentionally but keeps it hidden from her husband and slowly weans him away from her so he wont be begging her for sex all the time and she can have her boy toy to fuck her brains out and rock her world and get exactly what she wants, a husband that provides everything for her and his reward is that she is no longer intimate with him in any way and some other man is fucking her like a whore and making her scream and beg for his cock and she does not have a husband nagging her about sex all the time...
what a confusing mess this has seemed to turn out to be and i am not sure even which way to go or turn or not even sure that i would go any certain way for fear of people finding out about the lifestyle we have sort of ended up in, especially if this is something she planned from the beginning.. maybe she is trying to drive me to have sex with another woman to catch me and make me the bad guy in all of this???
for now i have just accepted it all and changed nothing, i do what she wants, i don't bug her about the sex, i just jerk myself off, i work my job, i ended up throwing all those emails away and i no longer read their emails to each other and i know it is happening and i just try not to think about it, there was one day a while back that i did see a pair of her panties, a little black thong, on top of the hamper in our bedroom and i noticed the crotch was all wet and creamy with what was obviously globs of his cum, i just acted like i never saw them there as i felt they were put there for me to see because she had never left any panties on top of the hamper before, especially with the crotch showing.. later that day they were gone.. maybe she is wanting me to find out, i have no idea, for right now i just know that for almost 13 months another man has been fucking my wife and has done so probably 80 times by now and filled her pussy up with his cum every time and i have not cum in her pussy in over 6 months now..
that's my confession and honestly i don't feel better about confessing it, now i feel worse.
anyway life goes on i guess and i guess that her and i will never have sex again, she no longer needs me or actually never needed me in the first place to satisfy her sexually that part was all a lie i guess, she may say she loves me but i feel she has a very strange way of showing it...
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