What. The. Fuck.

This wasn't supposed to be possible. It was supposed to be genetic: either you got hard thinking about other men and their cocks or you didn't, and that didn't change. Well, I'm here to tell you, it can change. I used to be 100% straight, for the first 20 years of my life, at least. Then in a search for greater sexual thrills, I toyed a little with the masochistic fantasy of becoming reluctantly gay. Incredibly, a few silly masturbatory experiments (could I coerce myself to cum while looking at a naked man?) set in motion a years-long cascade of expanding and shifting sexuality. I didn't recognize it at first. I thought it was just a silly but ineffectual fantasy. Stroking my disinterested cock while looking at gay porn, or getting myself ready with straight porn and then substituting some gross gay image just in time for orgasm, made me feel naughty but wouldn't and couldn't actually make me gay. Right? Not entirely.

The more I did things like that, the less disgusting and the more pleasurable they became. At first, months would go by between "experiments". But those months shrank to weeks, and those weeks to days. Somewhere along the way, I found that my cock wasn't disinterested anymore. I realized that I was cumming without having to think of a woman like I used to. And then I got really worried when I had to admit to myself that my cock was getting hard all by itself at the thought or sight of nude men or gay sex. Didn't that mean I was gay, or at least bisexual? I mean, if the sight of another guy's cock makes your cock spring to full mast, glistening with precum...well, that's pretty fucking gay. So is having to think about sucking some dude's cock in order to cum inside your wife.

I never developed any romantic interest in men, but my loins have taken on a mind of their own. Gay porn is now more physically arousing and orgasmically satisfying than straight porn for me. Women still turn me on -- they just don't seem to get me off, at least not with the raw intensity that men do. The image of an attractive man's junk gets me hard in seconds, as if I were 16 again. I see women in the street that I desire so much, physically and otherwise, but if you put them next to a gorgeous bodybuilder with his thick flaccid cock hanging down past his balls and the tip of his head peeking out of his foreskin, my cock chooses him every time. I can't control it. The women are more beautiful, more lovely, more desirable up in my chest. But below the waist, it's the men that make my cock rise and my cum gush.

So the masochistic fantasy has come true, in a way. I am a straight guy with a gay cock. I have tried to get back into boobs and pussy, but I always relapse because the naughty bits of other men make my dick feel so much more electric.

So fuck it.

Regardless of how I got here, I confess: I'm sexually attracted to other men. I love cock! And abs and balls and biceps and pecs and... Other men turn me on, get me hard, and make me cum.

And if you're a gay man out there reading this and getting hard thinking of my straight ass (literally perhaps) and my virgin lips and my traitorous man-crazy penis, then I'm glad to have given something back to the community. :)