I'd never paid her much attention at work just a hi and goodbye. I was happy with my wife and life, after 5 years she started coming up behind me when I was sitting and push her little breasts into my shoulders, and whispering what are you doing tonite, are you coming out for drinks. I always replied No. Then after a work christmas party back at another work colleagues home I'm a bit pissed she cornered me and pulled me down to her and our lips met I kissed her back tongue and all I didn't want to stop, but then I pulled away. Why I can't say, just did, We sat down on a bed saying nothing, very awkward, she got up and walked out then I followed. Nothing more happened that night. But for the life of me I couldn't forget about that kiss, Why Did I stop I didn't want it too end, she had got in my head, Was she waiting for me to make the next move. Did she want more, we were both married, Found out later she was not happy at home, and had had been fucking a couple of guys from work neither of who were at the party that night. Now we only talk when it's work related, No hellos I just walk past her as if I don't even know she is there I have found a couple of photos of her that I have on my phone that I look at EVERY single day. And also another photo of her when she started there before me, OMG she has changed since then, Is that why I had never noticed her ? She just looks So Sexy now, it's her face, her attitude her tight lithe body I've tried deleting her photos, many many times. But I eventually retrieve them and stare at them daily, thinking, fantasizing about what I would do with her if alone again. My wife knows of the work kiss and the fact I cannot forget about her, our marriage is over although we are still good friends. Why can I not get Blondie out of my head. I know she doesn't want me, it was all just a game to her, I know I'm too old for her, I know she is a Slut, although she denies it declaring her loyalty and love for her husband. I know it's a bit cliche but it's as if she has me under a spell, I hate her for taunting me, I hate her for ruining my marriage. I want to r**e her, then kiss her while I strangle her until I inhale her last breathe, then resuscitate her and do it again.