This story starts many years back when I was 16 and used to hang out on a site called BuddyPic where you posted a pic and chatted to guys and girls, mostly pretty harmless stuff.

I met a guy on there called Marc I recall he was 19 at the time and he was really interested in me. I wasn't the most beautiful girl on the site and I was really a bit of a dork and had never even dated a guy so he kind of blew me away and we would message each other several times a day for months. I had really fallen for him even though he was in England.

He asked one day if I would sleep with him if he visited and I said yes without any hesitation and he described how it would be. We would take some blankets out on the sand dunes late one evening and make our bed where nobody would find us then as it got dark we would snuggle together and look at the stars. He told me that he would undress me till I was completely naked and cuddle me close to him, He told me he would touch and stroke my body all over then asked if I was okay with that, I typed "yes" and he told me that he would like it if I did the same to him I typed "maybe, okay, yes" He told me he would not have sex with me as I was not ready but would ask me to tell him when I was ready and he would take my virginity. I remember typing "yes, of course, definitely"

I still recall how I was tingling after that message session. I few weeks later I was heartbroken when he stopped messaging me and it took me months to get over it.

Jump now 5 years on, so I am now 21 and I get an email message asking me if I would still have his babies. We had talked about this before and I know I should have just pressed Delete but I started asking him why he hurt me and he sweet talked me round and I soon said "yes" I would still have his babies and all my old feelings were back. All his conversaations were now about sex and he started asking me for pictures to which I said "no". He made out I was his proper girlfriend and that if we were together we would be intimate every day so I gave in and sent him two topless pictures. He was delighted and his compliments made me feel happier about what I had done. It felt good to have made him happy and we started talking about how we would finally meet up and be together.

He kept on with his sex chat all the time and one day said he expected me to get back in shape after each baby and I went wild at him, and called him a creep and shallow and probably worse, Basically I dumped him. I cried again after he was gone and in a few days messaged him to say I was sorry for what I said (this did happen sometimes, I do have a bit of a temper), He told me he had been hurt by what I said, I didn't tell him I had been hurt by what he had said to me, and that he thought it unfair to call a guy shallow who had promised me the babies I had asked him for. Again I said "sorry". He told me it was easy to say sorry, but I had to show him how sorry I was. I immediately knew what he meant because he had been asking for nude pictures for a while.

Next time my fols were away I went into their room and took six naked pictures of my body in their fulllength mirror and sent them to him. I am sure some of you are ahead of me already. He messaged back and just said "woww". I figured I had won him back, but that was the last message I ever got

Painful lesson learnt. Regrets ? No not really, time heals and I am now much wiser and happy.

Oh yes and babies with a good man :-)