I became a closet gay male about 20yrs ago after a really drunk party I went to and not sure how it started and don't really remember much from that night but anyways I ended up sucking my first dick that night. After that night the guy I sucked became a regular thing and about 6 months he took my virgin ass. I was his personal cock sucker and quick piece of ass whenever his wife wouldn't put out for him and I came to enjoy it but after about a year I also wanted more sex then just once or twice a month so I started looking other places to find sex.

No one knew I was gay as I would occasionally take a female friend to BBQ's and parties and other functions but never had sex with them as it was more for just hiding the fact I loved sex with men. About 5yrs ago I tried Craigslist to hook up with a few guys and that's when things changed. I had hooked up with a few guys and either we would meet at their place or at a motel or secluded area. I was checking CL one day and came across a post by a black guy in his mid 40's (so he said) and after a few emails we made arrangements to meet at his place as he just wanted a blowjob.

I went to his place and he was wearing a t-shirt and gym shorts and when we went into his living room he pulled his shorts down and sat on the couch and told me to get on my knees and start sucking his bbc ( which was about 7 inches and a little on the thick side but nothing like the bbc's in the porno movies) I did as told and he was verbal and talking dirty while I sucked him off and licked and sucked his balls and after about 20 minutes he blew his load in my mouth and as normal I swallowed his load and then I left. It was nice and we both got what we wanted.

We did meet a few more times and although he said he just liked getting sucked off he eventually wanted to fuck me and I had no problem with it being I did like getting fucked also but not as much as I like sucking dick. I hadn't seen him in about a month and was out golfing with a few friends and around the 5th hole the guy I was riding in the cart with asked me if I ever looked at gays homemade videos on the net which I thought was odd and naturally said no (which I never really did) then he says I might want to. I played it off and said it wasn't my thing.

He looked at me and said he didn't mind gay sex once in awhile and said he knew I like sucking and getting fucked. I said I don't think so and he said BS because it really looked like I enjoyed sucking a black cock and got off getting fucked my one. I said what the hell are you talking about and he hands me his phone and watch this video. I clicked on it and found a video that was about 35 minutes long and it showed a white guy sucking a black cock and about 2 minutes into it my heart jumped into my throat as the face now became clear and it was me sucking this cock and I looked at him and said where did you get this which he replied he was just looking for some gay videos to jack off to when he found it. While we were golfing I kept checking out the video and when it was all done it showed me sucking this guy and getting fucked by him and his verbal dirty talk as well as me saying how much I loved sucking his cock and how good it felt when he was fucking me. Somehow he was able to keep his face hidden from the camera but there was no doubt you could plainly see my face both sucked and while getting fucked and no doubt I was willingly enjoying it all.

When I was done watching the video (around the 16th hole) he tells me he is discreet and none of his friends know he was Bi and wanted me to suck him off and wanted to fuck me and wouldn't tell anyone as long as I was willing. We did go back to his place where I sucked him off that evening and later became his cock sucking bottom. I did go back to confront the black guy (mind you it was a couple yrs since I hooked up with this guy) and he no longer lived at the house. I never knew he recorded us having sex and it did and does make me nervous that others might find this video as I can't figure out how to delete it. About the only good thing is I now get steady cock to suck and fuck me even though he's only about 6 inches and average thickness but when he does fuck me it does fill really good. I guess we are secretly a couple because I am the only one he has sex with (male wise) but I am just putting it out there for those that hook up via CL watch where you meet and if you go to someone's house you might just get recorded.