Loads of childhood/young gay encounters between friend on this site. That never happened for me or any of my friends (to my knowledge) through school or college. I was always a bit curious being full of puberty and hormones but at my school any homosexual thoughts/words/actions made you a social pariah. Also I am pretty much heterosexual so I was more interested in women and they consumed my waking thoughts.

As I got into my 20s the gay/bi curiousity pretty much disappeared. Until I got a flight from London to Belfast and met a handsome, charming airline steward. I worked in the travel industry too so we were just chatting and laughing on the flight when he offered me a lift to my hotel.

I honestly never thought anything would happen. He dropped me off and said he would join me for a drink at the end of the night. We had a couple of whiskys and he had a load of miniatures from the plane so took them to my room.

Was not awkward at all. We kissed, wanked and blew each other. He complimented me on my oral technique and gave me a couple of pointers. To be honest I was not 'getting it' from him (or the gay thing?) but we finished each other off well. We showered together and I thought we might go again but he had to leave. It was a shock but not an unpleasant thing for me, however it did not light any sparks either.

Never thought about gay sex or men for another twenty years. Was married for ten years but sadly separated from my wife over a year ago. Not long after the separation I got drunk/high with a younger male friend of mine (early 20s) and suddenly we we were all over each other. I got really into it. Deep throated him, put him over my knee and spanked him. Fingered his arse and let him rim me.

It has not happened since (six months) but I want him and fantasise about it. Have no interest in other men and unsure about this. I want to fuck his mouth and arse, yet watching gay porn does nothing for me.