when i was a kid i was put in a childrens home and shared a room with an older lad who was great most of the time but after lights out would get me to wank him of,or a good punch would follow,i did it but it wasn`t long before he was pulling my head down onto his cock which id play with trying to avoid sucking it but i finally gave in ,once i had it was everynight till he`d come in my mouth,He used to love standing over me and strange as it may sound id sometimes get a hard on and hed get behind me with his cock between my legs but thankfully never up me, it was a strange feeling being used like that and sometimes id come which he regarded as me wanting it.maybe after a while i did as right up to i met my wife in my twenties id find it hard to get though several months without having these terrible urges to suck a guy of,i allways made out they were near enough doing me a favour by letting me have this one of experience,some even said they understood and came back for more,outhers were far from keen,Nothink has happened in over 25 years but the guilt still comes to the surface when i have to lie among men knowing iv done it myself