Straight Female / 19
My boyfriend and I have been together for a year and have a fairly vanilla sex life, but that never bothered me. This is my first sexual relationship and I wouldn't have wanted to dive into anything unusual, this is the first 'strange' thing we've done.
He has always been a butt guy, he always gives my ass attention (grabbing, touching, staring, compliments) even just throughout the day. We have never talked about anything involving the anus though.
The other night he was eating me out and he asked me to sit on his face (usually he gives me head with me lying down on my back) and while he was doing that he then moved me back and started rimming my asshole. He didn't do it forcefully and I could have stopped him if I didn't want to do it. in the moment I let it happen and afterwards when we moved on I touched his dick and it was rock hard and throbbing, even though it had no physical stimulation while he was doing this to me for I'd say 10 minutes. He asked me if I liked it when he licked me 'down lower' and I said 'I'm not sure how I feel yet. Did you like it? Arent you grossed out?' and he said 'Darling, I've never been more turned on my life'.
Since it happened, I've had a lot of confusing thoughts. Firstly, for some reason I feel massive amounts guilt and shame. I feel like I should be more grossed out by this than I am and I even feel bad about not being grossed out. I feel like I've done something really bad. I had a conservative background and grew up Christian if that matters, though its been 6 years since I stopped practicing. Secondly, I'm not sure what the appeal is for my boyfriend. I didn't mind the feeling of it being done to me but I think my thoughts prevented me from getting into it. I don't understand his mindset though. Why would it be so enjoyable for him?
Knowing that it turns him on so much (even though I don't understand why) makes me think he's going to want to do it often, which makes me worry about the shame factor. I guess I'm just looking for experiences and advice about these kinds of things, and for someone who personally enjoys rimming explain the appeal to them?
He has always been a butt guy, he always gives my ass attention (grabbing, touching, staring, compliments) even just throughout the day. We have never talked about anything involving the anus though.
The other night he was eating me out and he asked me to sit on his face (usually he gives me head with me lying down on my back) and while he was doing that he then moved me back and started rimming my asshole. He didn't do it forcefully and I could have stopped him if I didn't want to do it. in the moment I let it happen and afterwards when we moved on I touched his dick and it was rock hard and throbbing, even though it had no physical stimulation while he was doing this to me for I'd say 10 minutes. He asked me if I liked it when he licked me 'down lower' and I said 'I'm not sure how I feel yet. Did you like it? Arent you grossed out?' and he said 'Darling, I've never been more turned on my life'.
Since it happened, I've had a lot of confusing thoughts. Firstly, for some reason I feel massive amounts guilt and shame. I feel like I should be more grossed out by this than I am and I even feel bad about not being grossed out. I feel like I've done something really bad. I had a conservative background and grew up Christian if that matters, though its been 6 years since I stopped practicing. Secondly, I'm not sure what the appeal is for my boyfriend. I didn't mind the feeling of it being done to me but I think my thoughts prevented me from getting into it. I don't understand his mindset though. Why would it be so enjoyable for him?
Knowing that it turns him on so much (even though I don't understand why) makes me think he's going to want to do it often, which makes me worry about the shame factor. I guess I'm just looking for experiences and advice about these kinds of things, and for someone who personally enjoys rimming explain the appeal to them?
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