I am here because I have no where else to say how I feel.

I don't want to be pregnant. I would never have an abortion. The father does not know, he is a casual acquaintance, it was just sex with no meaning. The stupid part is that I had sex to shut him up and stop whining.

I have a job, at my work coming out pregnant on my own is going to go over really bad. My company is family owned and very Christian, the reason I took the job to begin with. Yes I am a Christian girl who has needs and went down the wrong path into oblivion and now I am pregnant. I am five months, and not showing if I wear the right clothes.

I don't earn enough to provide a good life for a child. I am still dependent on my family, car, insurance, phone, bail out after bail out. I have moved back and forth to live with my parents since I got out of college. I am currently living alone in a garage apartment of some of my parent's friends. I got pregnant in this apartment. When my hosts find out that I had a man up here and he had sex with me, I will be asked to leave. Our church is not forgiving, especially when it comes to moral failures.

Of all my relatives I feel that only my grandmother will accept my situation. I will start with her, she will be past angry and disappointed, but she loves me and I am hoping that she will help me talk to my parents.

It is my fault for failing. I will not go down the path of total oblivion by contemplating an abortion, and I will not surrender a child to adoption. I don't know what my sentence will be, but if I have to go into poverty to keep this child I will. It is going to be a girl. I have chosen her name, Rebeca.