5th time posting I've gone through the being m****ted by a teen age boy at 7 years old and he said if I told my parents he'd kill me so I went back to the bush fort everyday by the time I was 10 I received anal penetration and was already sucking cock and loving it I'd make like I didn't want to do it but I thought that was my purpose and continued doing so until 3 months ago my older sister who is a abused child therapist help me find someone in so Cal State I told my sister everything and told her I like being filled with cum



I don't do the kissing thing I just want their cocks so I'd go to a glory hole in santa barbara I just wanted to suck cock and have them fuck my ass and fill me the first night I got filled twice and my jaw was aching the ride home I had a rolled wash cloth between my ass and I could feel it dripping out I got home sat on the toilet and it dripped out and yes I tasted it



When I don't go to the glory hole I bang myself with a large dildo I enjoy being fucked by big white circumcised cock and that happens 4-6times a day I eat my cum or 1 or 2 loads I scoop it in my ass and feel it slip out I went to santa barbara 3 months ago and beat my record 1pm-12am sucked and got fucked by 16 men and college students I think a couple came back for 2nds I didn't mind


So it's been 3 months the same time I started going to my therapist I didn't want a man I wanted a woman because their not judgmental I told her everything and added the fact I enjoy it she told me I was a victim and that's why when a woman leaves me I go looking for cock it's like I have a sign on my forehead "please let me suck you but I want your load up my ass" so no sex for 3 months and a lot of soul searching but today


I broke out my favorite toys and lubed up my ass and the toy but I couldn't get it in even a graduated butt plug no go my asshole isnt humongous but my ex could put her hand in I tried but it wouldn't go so any ideas to get My asshole back to enjoying my toys? I don't want to go backwards and buy tiny toys you can email me at ultimatekeys at m s n dot com


Also I better add I'm a 65 year old touring musician with a national act I started wearing lacey thongs and Opera length black hose that stay up by themselves and a vibrating butt plug the concert volume covers it up that's under my clothes sometimes I think the people know and I really don't care at least I'm not eating cock and feeling my orgasm as hes fucking me good thanks for letting me get this off my chest love you all