I was 19 years old when I realized that I have a sexual feeling with my cousin. He was 25 years old, average built latino, with a handsome unsmiley face. He has two lovely daughters. My family doesnt know that Im gay.

We're not really close to each other, we dont talk to each other that much. Sometimes I saw him watching me, but everytime I caught him watching me he always turns his way. And I became very aware of his movements.

One night, we had our longest eye to eye contact. And I felt something was going to happen. During a family reunion while everyone was sleeping, he came in to my room he just welcomed me with a very torrid kiss. I could smell alcohol in his breath so i assumed he's drunk. But I never fought back and I let him do me. I unbuttoned his polo and unzipped his pants. I remember he was wearing a black brief and under it was a 7 or 8 inches of a throbbing dick. He laid down and I sucked him deep. It smelled wonderful and it was so red, and so hard. It was my first time to do anal but i offered myself to him like a free bitch. We did doggie first and he spat some saliva on his dick and inserted it in my hole. I told him to slow down first but he didnt, I guess he was very excited and horny but I just let him pound me hard. The bed moved with him rhythmically. He was so strong, I really thought I'd bleed. He turned me around and we did missionary. We curled and kissed, sweaty bodies locked together. Till he moaned hard, and there was just a lot of kissing. He dressed after that and went to his room with his kids.

We never talked about that the next day, like nothing happened. We did it sometimes at his house or at my place when we feel we need each other. We made a sort of language that when i meet his eyes in a crowded room, I surely know I will be swimming with his cum after.