I only recently have my own computer and I have never been able to write anything about me before. A lot of the stories I read seem to be made up but there is nobody I can talk to about what my family has put me through. I found out my mother died when I was about 9 years old and my father I don't remember and non of my family knows where he could be today. I was born deaf with many allergies and have always had difficulty digesting different foods. My youngest years I've been told were spent in foster homes which I don't recall much of it. The only one I remember was a group home where I think I was for about 3 years until I was 10. Thats when my grandmother took me into her house where my Uncle Eric (who was my mothers older brother), his wife Doris and their daughter Renee. Doris is a black lady but Renee is white and I found out years ago Renee is adopted by them. They are all big people compared to me and even now since I just turned 20 last month I am barely over 5 ft. The only one who learned how to sign, and not very well, is Renee who is 28 now but she has treated me just as bad as my uncle and aunt. My grandmother died 2 days before my 12th birthday in 2009 and as bad as things were they got even worse. I do get sick lots of times but I really can't help it even with all the medications I have taken. I still throw up alot and have problems going to the bathroom and even now sometimes wet my bed. Uncle Eric isn't home a lot and even when he is done work he's usually at a bar. Even before my grandmother died Aunt Doris and Renee have physically and mentally abused me and the humiliation and embarrassment I still endure. They think because I'm deaf I am also stupid and I think they enjoy humiliating me even in front of other people, especially Renee. They treat me the same way now that they did when I was 10 years old and I can't do anything about it. Even Uncle Eric allows it to go on and there were many times he beat me also.

At 10 years old I doubt I was intimadated to much when Aunt Doris or Renee gave me a bath but since when can't I take my bath myself. Every night except Sunday either Aunt Doris or Renee insist on bathing me and its not just embarrassing, I still cry sometimes out of complete humiliation. They actually make me stand up to wash my genitals and then I have to turn and bend over as the wash my butt. Every night before I get in bed one of them stands there to make sure I pee. I don't pee my bed as much as I did when I was younger but when I do I get spanked for it. Many times I have been naked when they spank me but if not I only have a shirt on even when Uncle Eric has done it. Aunt Doris's sister has seen me naked many times and also has seen me spanked many times over the past 10 years. There is no regard for my modesty which now I have very little left. Renee is worse since there are two of her friends who have seen me naked many times and seen her whipping me with nothing on. Aside from those two other girls there are three or four more who have seen me nude or being spanked nude which I'm sure Renee does to humiliate me more. She has to know how upset I am and most of the time I can't stop crying which Renee thinks is funny. One of the girls is a black girl who lives down the street and she is here several times a week and Renee's best friend. Renee still lets her see me getting a bath almost every week and although I can't hear them I know they are talking about my testicals or penis. Renee's friend just smiles at me when Renee washes me and to make things more humiliating I sometimes have an erection when she is washing my genitals. They just laugh but Renee always smacks my butt when this happens. I do masturbate sometimes but I don't think I even started to jerk off until I was 15. It hasn't happen for almost a year now but Aunt Doris many times either gave me an enama or inserted suppositories in me most of the time with Renee standing there. I only remember Renee doing it three times but it was a couple years ago and once she let her friend watch. I do have two friends from the school but I'm to ashamed to tell them anything about this. I wrote down for Uncle Eric a few years ago that Aunt Doris and Renee were embarrassing me and on the bottom of the paper he wrote do as your told then smacked my face. He's just as bad as his wife and Renee and I hate them all.