anxiety stress and worry over my cat and I am shtting myself with worry. like so ill inside of me with worry. the tension and panic and migraine I have, and so much worry about money, worry about the house. worry about things breaking and health and how to get by without love and help. what am I supposed to be for everybody? just want things less stressful. so the panic is there beating at me. i near faint, gag, and palpulations in the heart with worry worry worry worry. there is not chance no time for lust and sex for me, its never been about love and fun for me. I am sick of being ill. sick of dealing with this illness i have. well yesterday I was able to drink some soft drink for a change. not that i liked it much. a few months without panic and worry over illness or money, or pets, or how to get a job, or how to clean the house would be good. someone to just do it all for me. for me to go to a place that i call my own would be so nice.