I'm 43 ,divorced for five years,very private and desecrate because of my kids ,very bicuriuos, I'm not cercumsized,i like my foreskin! Had a ongoing dream since I was 16, I ran away,hitchiking,raining,cold hungry no money ,no idea were I'm going!car pulled over opened passenger side door said get in its warm in here,so I did,older gentlemen,about 60,said he'd take me to next town,smelled like fresh oatmeal cookies,felt safe! Got to little town, pulled into hotel,tells me stay there till he got back,he wanted to help me,gets back in pulled around to his room,asked me to help him get bags in,i did,he said why don't you go take hot shower,he asked if I liked pizza and Pepsi,i told him I was fine but thanks, he talked very persuasively,i was soaking wet,starving and really upset,he told me go get in shower leave wet clothes by door he would go put I'm hotel laundry ,said he put a robe on door ,he would b back soon with food,i finished shower,no robe just a small foot towel on toilet,was getting Leary,looked around my bag was gone,no clothes nothing, I sat in chair but TV,layed towel NB over my lap,he comes back brings pizza,pepsi said all my clothes are in the wash,he forgot a robe.told me eat and drink a soda, turned TV on ,gilagins island was on,said he was gonna shower then would go get my clothes,he stands by the bed takes off his dress shirt,smooth chest no hair,took off glasses,looked at me and asked if I minded I'm undressing were he was,i just looked at the floor,he sat down on bed removed socks dress shoes ,removed his belt unbuttoned his pants stood up,i felt bashfully like crazy,never seen a naked man,got nervous looked towards tne TV as he removed his pants no underwear,it was uncomfortable but intising to,he turned around to walk to shower,i found myself glancing in mirror,he was uncut clean shaved ,as was I, I never seen a naked man or another penis with foreskin,i tried my hardest not to look, but i stated in mirror as he walked around the bed ,felt my penis getting a tingle a little hard,felt wrong but also intising,he walked by touched my shoulder as he went to shower,i couldn't leave,he called my name asked if I would bring his loofa to him,man I felt weird,like what if I see him and get hard,i said here it is,he said his wife usually with him,asked if I could wash his back,told me it's ok,i was Leary holding tiny towel over penis trying reach in was his back, he pulled shower curtain back said dam boy do b shy ,I said I've never seen a man and his stuff before felt wrong ,no wrong in it I'm married for 50 years,hasnt been hard in forever said he would pay me to help him so I had some cash, I needed cash so he said get in he wouldn't look at me ,took loofa ,told me lather hands up and get his back,i did it came down to his lower back and ass, he said it's ok keep going,iblathered my hands up washing his cheeks, he kinda leaned forward put his ass backwards so I lathered my hands real good ,felt my penis tingling again felt so wrong , I spread his ass ran my soapy hands up and down between his cheeks from top of crack to his balls,rubbed back and forth across his asshole ,can't lie,i got turned on a bit, I kneeled down to do his KL legs and feet,he said so u never been in g gym class and looked at a boy as he turned around a s I was still kneeling told me start at his feet and worm my way up,demaener and voice got a little firm,i wanted to stop,but he got demanding,ibashed his legs up to the pelvic area,stood up and started to get out he said what u gonna leave no clothes money or anything,said he would call cops say I tried robbing him,i was scared ,he handed me the soap I lathered my hands closed my eyes and washed,his balls once again felt tingly put his penis between my fingers pulled skin back and caressed the sensitive head back and forth like I do mine when I shower pulled skin back over head he kinda jerked cause it tickled when he did he placed his hands on my shoulders as I finished washing his body,,don't know why but I got so hard,he said so u do like it ,tears rolled down my face in shame, he said don't be ashamed just me and him would ever know ,I tried off asked about my clothes as I sat back in chair,he said I wasn't getting them till morning,i got real upset,he said Again go ahead try to leave!! I wanted to but thought what it would look like! Ok just sat and started at floor as tears soaked my lap, he dries off sits at foot of bed in front of me,naked lays back and demanded me to look at him and touch myself I said I couldn't he sits up raised his voice and said u will or else and so fear sat in so I did ,he rubbed his cock pulling skin back and forth ,I was doing the same but I got hard ,he got really angry and aggressive,he got up turned over on knees and hands to move to top of bed ,I looked at his ass spread and exposing his asshole,and faint cleanse off balls ,the fear started to go away all I wanted to to was what he told me to at that point, told me to get next to him so he could watch me touch myself wanted to see it get hard and yell at me so it goes down,wanted me to feel like him cause he could get hard or cum he said I said if I get u hard and try to make u cum will u give my clothes back and let me leave he just laughed,he finally reach down and put his hand on my cock and balls,dont know y but I had been wishing he would! He rubbedy balls said he liked the smooth cleaned shaving kind like his,as he made me hard again pulling my skin back and forth playing with the tip of skin,i moaned thought silently,so he got more into it so I indulged him as well,i kinda leaned my body back a little so he could really play with it,i don't understand I started moaning harder,and body just was intense ,as b I was jacking hia cock I spit a lot onto my fingers and placed my fingers between his legs and starting fondling his asshole wet slippery,eased tip of my finger into his asshole ,still jacking him off I felt his cock kinda jolt a little like I do mine with the muscle,did it again so I spit on my fingers again increasing the depth little by little as I did he pushed downward he told me I better not stop he got aggressive with my balls and cock, he said he felt something he hasn't in years I felt his cock getting harder he got more exited rocking pelvic back and forth lower and lower onto my fingers as they slid deaper he started aggressively jacking me off almost hurting me,he said push my fingers deeper and harder ,I did as far as I could don't know why but I leaned forward to him and starting licking and sucking his smooth hard nipples he got loud oh yes oh yes on the second oh yes I came so hard felt so dam good,i raised up a little going hard as hell on him put my mouth to his my tongue in his and the third good hard tongue kiss he blasted off like a jet, I felt it hit my stomach pelvic area full force bam bam then baaaaaaam hot gushing cum all over me , he kept his grip on me as I pulled fingers out of his asshole,his body just kinda melted,he layed back with this awwwww look, kinda made me feel good,i went rinsed off dried off got under blanket faced the wall hoping to pass out he goes rinses off turned all lights off sits on foot of bed looking in mirror,my eyes got heavy sleepy,dozed off ,felt him get in bed skidding under blanket,got real still I fell deep into sleep guess I turned over on my back at some point,t woke up to him getting between my legs easly pushing apart as not to wake me,started playing with my foreskin,licking my balls and cock I pretended to still b asleep I honestly didn't want him to stop,he got it halfway hard pulled skin back softly tongued round and round my sensitive head making it impossible to b still but I tried,the more he licked and put it in his mouth the harder it got,like a wish come true he gets a mouth full of saliva released it onto my asshole man it felt good,he took his tongue and licked my hole,it kept pulsating from pleasure,i moaned out load,he kept on putting my hard cock in his wet warm mouth going up and down more and more all the sudden I felt two of his fingers slide into my asshole,dont understand but my asshole was so juicy wet,his fingers slide in in and out several times each time harder and deeper the last time as his fingers went in it was intensely gratifying he hit something in there oh my god ,felt unreall as I felt that push he slid his mouth down at the same time I came,fingers I b deep and hard mouth tightly around mycock and cum gushing like never before,felt like I came from my asshole to!! I didn't even move he layed next to me not a word said fell asleep,woke up he was gone money on the top of my clothes ,but the fucked up thing it felt so reel,but just a dream,! But several times in my life same dream exactly in detail,each time I wake up cumming ! But haven't had dream! I'm uncut,never been touched by a man and never touched one! It has to be desecrate and someone clean uncut ,that would take some time and maybe feed this craving to b with a uncut man explore and embrace him,i don't want it to b taking as a joke, I need this to b part of my life! I want it severely! Meet someone,get to know him a bit,talk ! Learn a little about each other and finally meet in a place to enjoy our friendship and hopefully bring all this to reality! I have masterbatet to so many different situations with a man who may have same interest! He has to be at least 44 or older,caucasion,has to be uncircumcised,,clean deasese free,prefearably have a small cock! This is more than a dream for me,i wanna love and be loved one day again. been with woman my whole life got children,but something about these feelings I have when I picture being with a man for the first time,i want to experience ! If I ever get the opportunity to bring this to life I do believe weather it's one time,often or permanently I will b happy ! I'm bicurious that's for sure but I could settle for more! A real relationship even I'm ready ! So if someone reads this I hope u feel the intensity in reading it that I feel and would be real and mature about it cause again this is my life! Thank u and I hope it finds the rite eyes!