My family owned a large company, and we lived on a shared compound with my grandparents and my uncles and aunts. My older cousin, he was ten years older than me, took care of me. I was his baby and I am his baby now. When I was 12, there was a large sleep over at one of my cousin's house. I wasn't invited because I was too young, but my older cousin let me in and told me to stay close to him. Some of the kids started smoking pot.

It was past bedtime and my cousin told me to get in the sleeping bag with him and take of my shirt and pants. His penis was hard and he kept poking up my butt until he put me on my stomach and got on my back and pushed my panties down and his penis went in me all the way. He humped me pretty hard until he ejaculated in me. When he pulled out he lay on his side and had me lay on my side and he spooned me against his chest. In the morning he had sex with me again, only this time on my back.

He took care of me and made sure that I was not bothered by any boys. I was 17 before I told anyone that we had sex when I was 12, I told a girl at school. After telling her I was able to talk about it and it got back to my mother. I told her I made it up because the other girls made up stories too. She told me not to make up stories like that because one day I was going to want to get married and what man was going to want a girl who didn't respect herself.

When I was 19, I was home for the summer, and my cousin pulled me aside and told me that he needed me. The word need he spelt out, like n e e d e d me, right then. He hadn't had sex since we last saw each other at spring break and he was about to bust a gut. That time I got pregnant, I just wasn't too careful with taking the pill every day. Without any thing else to do, my family hired a lawyer who got us a permission to marry.

We have four kids, and we have sex all the time. I didn't plan any of the kids, one day the pistol is going to be loaded again and he is going to hit the target again, I just don't know what day. He have sex whenever he wants, we don't plan anything and we don't use birth control. When we have six he says he is going to get a vasectomy, but not before. I am more than in love with him, he is everything to me. I'm young I can have as many babies as he wants. When we have six I won't let him get a vasectomy.